In july/august I decided to see another psychiatrist because I felt I was taking way too much meds and not seeing results. My life was already terrible, but not to the point that it is now. The current doctor took away my antidepressants and prescribed me lithium and quetiapine. When I tried to OD and failed, he then raised the quetiapine and lithium dosages. The worst part is that he also took away the alprazolam that I used to take everyday to calm my anxiety, saying that it's a depressant.
In september I start growing more and more anxious. The thoughts in my head that I'd control with xanax I'm now being forced to live with. Then they take hours. Days. Weeks. It's been a month since a recurring thought has now destroyed my will to live. Only now he prescribed me an antidepressant again: buproprion. I still feel nothing.
I feel so angry. It's not his fault but I feel like I wouldn't be in this state had I stayed with my old psychiatrist. I'm now taking 900mg of lithium, 300mg of quetiapine and 150mg of buproprion and feeling like shit day after day. Man, fuck this life. Fuck meds.
In september I start growing more and more anxious. The thoughts in my head that I'd control with xanax I'm now being forced to live with. Then they take hours. Days. Weeks. It's been a month since a recurring thought has now destroyed my will to live. Only now he prescribed me an antidepressant again: buproprion. I still feel nothing.
I feel so angry. It's not his fault but I feel like I wouldn't be in this state had I stayed with my old psychiatrist. I'm now taking 900mg of lithium, 300mg of quetiapine and 150mg of buproprion and feeling like shit day after day. Man, fuck this life. Fuck meds.
