I feel like meds are keeping me here and holding me back from ctb

[Lost Magic]

I take Prozac, Kratom, valium/Xanax (occasionally) This is for through the day.
zopiclone and Promethazine This is for night.

While, I will be using some of these drugs to help sedate me for when it is time to leave this world, I do feel like they are also keeping me here longer.
It's sorta a catch 22. Anybody feel similar?

 

[NoLightRemains]

I feel similar about my relationship to weed. When I tried to quit for 9 days, there were a couple days where I wasn't sleeping well and I think I could have pulled off an impulsive attempt if it weren't from a couple conditions being met. When I'm using daily, it helps keep me just comfortable enough that I don't feel the immediate urge to CTB.

I think the drugs are supposed to keep you here and make life more tolerable.

 

[Ernest1964]

I've been on antidepressants for 20+ years and yes, if it weren't for them I most likely would have CTB years ago. I have had some set backs in my life and with each one I ask myself, "Is there any more that I am able to give and or receive from this world?" Then, out of nowhere something comes into my life that is a pretty clear indicator that there is a bit more... This happened most recently in January of this year.

 

[MrDarkness]

The meds are clearly working and help preventing you into ctb, but if your always rethinking it, your not ready to die yet, no shame in it