Venting i feel like im getting back to the worst version of myself

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

I relapsed not long ago and cut again today right after school, my classmates took pictures of me on the bus. Im starting to get back into my addictions (18+, drinking) and im just suicidal as fuck. for the first time in a while i regret having to open my eyes in the morning and there is just so much stress off of everything. Can you not just shut the fuck up and leave me a day to rest? at the same time i feel so jealous for not telling my friends anything like i used to. Just let me die in peace

 

[kosmischerunfall]

I feel you.
Starting to become my old [miserable] self.

 

[Bananaman]

my classmates took pictures of me on the bus.

Can you like, elaborate? Do you keep your scars visible? I personally wear socks over mine and no-one knows.

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

Can you like, elaborate? Do you keep your scars visible? I personally wear socks over mine and no-one knows.

No none of that i normally cut on my thighs, they just took pictures of me after kicking me off a seat (i scraped my knees quite a bit) and proceeded to taunt me and then just for some reason decided to take pics of me and uploaded it to snap. absolute sons of bitches

 

[DirtCommie]

No none of that i normally cut on my thighs, they just took pictures of me after kicking me off a seat (i scraped my knees quite a bit) and proceeded to taunt me and then just for some reason decided to take pics of me and uploaded it to snap. absolute sons of bitches

Lol if you feel this way about your 'friends' after they have treated you innsome type of way for a while are they really , really your 'friends'

Lol REAL Friends should be the type of people who youre so effortlessly able to chill and be vulnerable with that you dont have to change who you truly are deep down when youre around them (well unless youre a jerk. Jerks dont need friends. JErks need therapy) and they never cross healthy boundaries that you set for yourself and them (like taking unconsensual pictures of you and unconsensually uploading them to snapchat without apologizing)

From your story and profile pic Im going to guess that youre very young , maybe youre not and maybe Im wrong . But I will tell you that as you grow older you will learn this : There are people out there who can be your Real Friends like I just described. In today's imperialistic, individualistic , genocidal, and capitalistic world that we live in today people who can be good , Real Friends are needle in a haystack to find.... but they are out there... The hard work is just to come up with a plan and put in the legwork to find them. Id recommend that you try to find people like this in your community and dump these supposed 'friends' youve talked of here . Or maybe the friends that youve talked of here are good , Real Friends. If so Id ask you to sit down and talk with them about how they hirt you over the past weeks or month or years and ask them to to apologize and ask them to revolutionize how you and they interact so that you can be vulnerable with them without fear of them using your vulnerability to maliciously harm you.

You must stay away from fake friends and fake people at all costs. For your sanity. (and even for their sanity too if you think carefully about it lol)

BEst of wishes with that Sorry for any pain youve been through

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

Lol if you feel this way about your 'friends' after they have treated you innsome type of way for a while are they really , really your 'friends'

Lol REAL Friends should be the type of people who youre so effortlessly able to chill and be vulnerable with that you dont have to change who you truly are deep down when youre around them (well unless youre a jerk. Jerks dont need friends. JErks need therapy) and they never cross healthy boundaries that you set for yourself and them (like taking unconsensual pictures of you and unconsensually uploading them to snapchat without apologizing)

From your story and profile pic Im going to guess that youre very young , maybe youre not and maybe Im wrong . But I will tell you that as you grow older you will learn this : There are people out there who can be your Real Friends like I just described. In today's imperialistic, individualistic , genocidal, and capitalistic world that we live in today people who can be good , Real Friends are needle in a haystack to find.... but they are out there... The hard work is just to come up with a plan and put in the legwork to find them. Id recommend that you try to find people like this in your community and dump these supposed 'friends' youve talked of here . Or maybe the friends that youve talked of here are good , Real Friends. If so Id ask you to sit down and talk with them about how they hirt you over the past weeks or month or years and ask them to to apologize and ask them to revolutionize how you and they interact so that you can be vulnerable with them without fear of them using your vulnerability to maliciously harm you.

You must stay away from fake friends and fake people at all costs. For your sanity. (and even for their sanity too if you think carefully about it lol)

BEst of wishes with that Sorry for any pain youve been through

i think you read my message wrong LOL i was talking about my classmates not friends :) My friends are ways better even tho i think they dont like me (overthinking)