ilovecats
Empty Husk
- Feb 1, 2023
- 116
I feel like I'm supposed to be dead and that I don't have to keep living. It feels like my life is a dream meant to be ended and everything I live now is in excess. I kept repeating to myself that living a happy life is better than not existing but said it so many times it lost "meaning" to me. I tried to see the good part of this world but it all goes in circles and I still end up miserable. I can see nothing good about this world. We are not meant to be happy, but to be "useful". We are a resource to society, nothing more. Even if I try to live for myself, I still die. It would be like I never existed, not only to the universe, but to me as well. I would be erased from my reality, from myself, like I never knew I existed. So what am I living for? It feels like all of this is pointless. Why suffer? Why be happy? But I'm still here, living and afraid of a painful end, chained by human nature. Maybe if I broke free from it, I would be doing what I truthly want and end all of this the moment I have the chance.