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amareddy

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Sep 19, 2024
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Are we forced in this world to suffer? No matter what we do, we are unhappy. There's an emptiness inside. When I went deep to understand my life, I saw situations where I was only meant to suffer because of the system in this world. There are normal people who enjoy their lives. For me, it's so difficult to be with people; I almost feel lonely inside. It feels like the world is cruel.

I tried to take a path where I wanted to be happy, but during my journey, I met people who provoked me to do things that ended up leaving me depressed and suffering mentally. How can I be at fault because of a system that doesn't suit me?

Why was I born into an abusive and toxic environment that affected my mind? I did business, I failed; I couldn't work because of the toxic environment. I had alcohol issues, where I would become aggressive or hurt others with my words. I ended up in toxic relationships and couldn't work, so I have money issues. I lost my house.

I tried to end my life when I was 19. I think my soul knew this world was not meant for me and that I would suffer. Today I'm 40, and I have realized that yes that I have suffered for so many years and still am. I was on medication before and changed doctors so many times; the meds didn't help.

I have been thinking for years about ending my life, but I don't have the guts to do it because I don't want to die painfully. I'm searching for an easy way out. I don't want to die sad. I would like to accept death and die peacefully.

I feel that it's not the humans' fault; it's the power above that sent me here. They programmed me; they sent me here. They manipulate my mind. They created the system.

So I have no complaints towards humans. I just want to exit this world. Yes, life is unfair for me and for many others who are suffering. Sometimes I think we are sent here to learn about suffering so we can understand and then be taken to a different place.

I don't know what the purpose of life is. I feel people like me should have the right to die. I'm convincing my mind up to end my life. I hope I succeed in my plan to exit.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also see myself as not meant to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, personally I'd never wish for the pain of existing and wish I never existed more than anything, I hope you find peace.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Yes !!!! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
 
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killorbekilled

killorbekilled

manhwa reader, mentally unwell
Oct 3, 2024
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People say 'pain' is proof that you are alive. That happiness doesn't exist without the pain of overcoming challenges. If that's the case, then what's the point in living? Humans are built to want to feel 'happiness,' even if it's temporary. It doesn't make sense to me. I pray that you find peace and what you want when you cross over.
 
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