Misery99

Misery99

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May 12, 2020
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I don't have many close friends in real life (only two or three) They are neighbors and those aren't even real friends because they only talk to me when they need something from me. And other times they ignore me and it hurts me emotionally and they do know that I have depression.If someone doesn't talk or smile at me the same way as they did before, I feel rejected and overthink about it and cry about it later. As a depressed individual I think some so called neighbors/friends do it intentionally to hurt me. It's horrible because I always try to be helpful and reply to their messages as soon as I see them. I have even given them small loans when they needed it. Had given them gifts for birthdays. But those girls are backstabbers and they talk behind my back with others. They are outgoing and social. Which I am not. So it's an advantage for them to spread rumors about me. I never talk bad about them with others. I don't even mention them unless someone ask me. I want to know had anybody else had to deal with backstabbing people like those mean girls? And do you get easily hurt when people treat you differently than before.
 
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AngelRosrom

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May 19, 2023
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I don't have friends so that's not a problem, but I feel the same, when my family doesn't talk to me I feel personal, they know what I'm going through, I feel sad and maybe they don't do it with that intention. Everyone has things to do, it's me who doesn't move forward.
 
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Misery99

Misery99

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May 12, 2020
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I don't have friends so that's not a problem, but I feel the same, when my family doesn't talk to me I feel personal, they know what I'm going through, I feel sad and maybe they don't do it with that intention. Everyone has things to do, it's me who doesn't move forward.
Same with me. I feel everything deeply. My life had always been miserable ever since I was a kid so maybe that's why I'm too emotional now :'(
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

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So sorry you are going through this.
I've experienced this all through life, and it doesn't get any better.
Been depressed for a very long time now, and I find that most people just make my depression worse.
This is because most people are stupid and selfish. They are backstabbing liars, and will take advantage of you in any way they can.
I avoid people at all costs now. Life is much simpler that way.
You simply cannot trust them.
There are some genuinely good people in the world, but they are becoming very rare these days.
Same with me. I feel everything deeply. My life had always been miserable ever since I was a kid so maybe that's why I'm too emotional now :'(
I feel too much and love too much.
My emotions are far too deep.
My childhood was quite a nightmare, and still is.
I wish there was something like an emotional crash helmet to put on my head to protect my fragile brain.
So sorry you are going through this too.
 
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LONE WOLF.

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I treat other's (people) as they treat me,l do not get upset or annoyed if they ignore me as l refuse to give them that power over me!
 
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Misery99

Misery99

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May 12, 2020
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So sorry you are going through this.
I've experienced this all through life, and it doesn't get any better.
Been depressed for a very long time now, and I find that most people just make my depression worse.
This is because most people are stupid and selfish. They are backstabbing liars, and will take advantage of you in any way they can.
I avoid people at all costs now. Life is much simpler that way.
You simply cannot trust them.
There are some genuinely good people in the world, but they are becoming very rare these days.
Yes it's the same for me :'( I wish I wasn't this much sensitive. I think about everything deeply.
So sorry you are going through this.
I've experienced this all through life, and it doesn't get any better.
Been depressed for a very long time now, and I find that most people just make my depression worse.
This is because most people are stupid and selfish. They are backstabbing liars, and will take advantage of you in any way they can.
I avoid people at all costs now. Life is much simpler that way.
You simply cannot trust them.
There are some genuinely good people in the world, but they are becoming very rare these days.

I feel too much and love too much.
My emotions are far too deep.
My childhood was quite a nightmare, and still is.
I wish there was something like an emotional crash helmet to put on my head to protect my fragile brain.
So sorry you are going through this too.
I'm so sorry that you are going through the same sad feelings as I do. I also feel too much and my brain is very fragile. Wish I didn't care about everything too much. Some people don't care about what others say or think about them. I can't imagine how they do it. Maybe the reason for our fragile mindset is that we had a bad childhood. I think having a horrible childhood made us to be this way. If you like, I could be a friend to you. I need a good friend more than anything else in the world :hug:
I treat other's (people) as they treat me,l do not get upset or annoyed if they ignore me as l refuse to give them that power over me!
That's great that you are able to do that. I wish I had a strong mind like that. My mind is very fragile.
 
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DurkheimsCat

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May 27, 2023
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One of the Four Agreements is don't take anything personally. People are inherently selfish and they don't act to hurt you. This helps me separate from other's expectations and actions. I don't think others actually consider me so it's easier to not to be hurt by their actions. I hope this brings you some sort of comfort like it does for me. Makes it easier to accept that we are all truly alone. For me, my friends abandoned me when my depression and anxiety got to be too much.

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nothere123

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Apr 22, 2023
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I don't have many close friends in real life (only two or three) They are neighbors and those aren't even real friends because they only talk to me when they need something from me. And other times they ignore me and it hurts me emotionally and they do know that I have depression.If someone doesn't talk or smile at me the same way as they did before, I feel rejected and overthink about it and cry about it later. As a depressed individual I think some so called neighbors/friends do it intentionally to hurt me. It's horrible because I always try to be helpful and reply to their messages as soon as I see them. I have even given them small loans when they needed it. Had given them gifts for birthdays. But those girls are backstabbers and they talk behind my back with others. They are outgoing and social. Which I am not. So it's an advantage for them to spread rumors about me. I never talk bad about them with others. I don't even mention them unless someone ask me. I want to know had anybody else had to deal with backstabbing people like those mean girls? And do you get easily hurt when people treat you differently than before.
I have BPD so I have no thick skin. One small comment can lead to me spiralling
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

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May 20, 2023
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I have BPD so I have no thick skin. One small comment can lead to me spiralling
Oh yes, bipolar type 1 here. I know this feeling well.
 
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am1485

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Yes, I'm super sensitive too and I wear my heart on my sleeve. Anything that can be interpreted as negative, I automatically assume to be true and I have a very hard time getting over it. It takes me awhile to process any kind of criticism and when I hear it, it feels like the end of the world. I just care way too much. When someone isn't as nice or doesn't say what I expect, I get super hurt. I'm so sorry you have to go through this too. It sucks.
 
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N33dT0D13

N33dT0D13

Xe/It
Apr 2, 2023
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I'm sensitive & prone to overthinking too, it sucks, especially not being able to consistently gauge if someone is acting a certain way on purpose or not. I hate the paranoia I tend to feel in regards to, everyone really, always doubting people's motives no matter how much I like or love them, no matter how much I want to trust them. I feel it's just ego on my part, always looking for perceived slights to have an excuse to isolate myself from the people I otherwise would kill to be with.

As for backstabbers, it hurts immensely, betrayal always hurts, but I tend to find some comfort in the thought that they'll likely run all their other friends away due their treacherous nature.
 
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Jun 9, 2023
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I'm so sorry about your situation! :((( Traitors are the absolute worst! >_<
Unfortunately, yes. I was betrayed and abandoned by pretty much all of my friends in 9th and 10th grades and left with paranoia and without really any friends at all to this very day. :(((
 
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