I feel crap for not being able to CBT yet.

[fitoo5999]

I see a lot of people, young or older doing it on here and I can't yet. I am scared but I have not other choice. My life is a disaster and getting worst every day.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Don't beat yourself up for it. This isn't something that can happen overnight. You have to be patient with yourself. Get clarity on why you're doing it and even if you want to. Sure, someone's life can be a disaster. However, suicidal thoughts may be an overreaction to something that may be able to be fixed, or abandoned and restarted. I'm not trying to talk you out of it. I'm about to do it myself. However, my decision has come after years and years of inflection and reflection on my life.

I don't know if you've done that yet. If you have, and you are sure you want to do this, then just be patient with yourself and go about the business of ending your life. Just do it. It's easy to get in spaces like SaSu and get caught up in redundant ideation talk with people who mostly aren't serious about doing it for whatever reason. Pick a practical, realistic method that you can bring yourself to do. To hell with pain, how you will be remembered, what kind of note to write, or how your body will be found. Get down to the business of getting out of here. Pick a method, do diligent research, cut out all the bullshit talk about your method, and ease yourself into doing it.

That's what people who have done it did. They didn't get on here and discuss how they're going to look when they're found. They may have used this site as some sort of resource and a place to shout in the void. But they didn't depend on it for emotional support and therapy on the cheap. They weren't looking for friends or to be talked out of it. They just fucking did it.

That's what you'll have to do. I know some of what I said may have come off as abrasive, but it's the truth. I wish you peace, clarity, and love your journey. No matter what you decide.

 

[fitoo5999]

Don't beat yourself up for it. This isn't something that can happen overnight. You have to be patient with yourself. Get clarity on why you're doing it and even if you want to. Sure, someone's life can be a disaster. However, suicidal thoughts may be an overreaction to something that may be able to be fixed, or abandoned and restarted. I'm not trying to talk you out of it. I'm about to do it myself. However, my decision has come after years and years of inflection and reflection on my life.

I don't know if you've done that yet. If you have, and you are sure you want to do this, then just be patient with yourself and go about the business of ending your life. Just do it. It's easy to get in spaces like SaSu and get caught up in redundant ideation talk with people who mostly aren't serious about doing it for whatever reason. Pick a practical, realistic method that you can bring yourself to do. To hell with pain, how you will be remembered, what kind of note to write, or how your body will be found. Get down to the business of getting out of here. Pick a method, do diligent research, cut out all the bullshit talk about your method, and ease yourself into doing it.

That's what people who have done it did. They didn't get on here and discuss how they're going to look when they're found. They may have used this site as some sort of resource and a place to shout in the void. But they didn't depend on it for emotional support and therapy on the cheap. They weren't looking for friends or to be talked out of it. They just fucking did it.

That's what you'll have to do. I know some of what I said may have come off as abrasive, but it's the truth. I wish you peace, clarity, and love your journey. No matter what you decide.

Clear message. Thanks.

 

[hughmun9]

I see a lot of people, young or older doing it on here and I can't yet. I am scared but I have not other choice. My life is a disaster and getting worst every day.

Don't beat yourself up, even if there's a goodbye thread here every week, there's 65,991 registered members on ss atm. This site might make you feel like CTB-ing is common but as far as I know there's only been around 500 goodbye threads on here. The vast majority of people even on sasu do not CTB.

 

[whorror]

For me it's not this forum that is making me feel like CTB'ing, but life as a whole. If anything this forum helps me because it makes me feel like I'm not alone and people get me. I feel seen and heard. It's comforting, as weird as it may sound.

Don't beat yourself up, even if there's a goodbye thread here every week, there's 65,991 registered members on ss atm. This site might make you feel like CTB-ing is common but as far as I know there's only been around 500 goodbye threads on here. The vast majority of people even on sasu do not CTB.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Don't worry. You are probably on the way out. As I always say"the less time anybody has in this hell realm the better" so i understand your sentiment but don't beat yourself up over it.