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notahappygirl

Student
Jun 6, 2023
188
Hi, I havent been active for the past months because i was embarrased i failed my SN attempt. When i attempted I hadnt slept well for three days and i was hearing voices. The SN didnt do shit to me and made me feel really ill. My head felt like it was exploding and i had to call for help. My SN was from alibaba and I believe it wasnt pure. After the hospital I was admitted to the psych ward I stayed there for a week they treated with so much kindness and the food was delicious. Now im seeing a psychiatric and they are making me take aripiprazole,trazodone and escitalopram. But they are not making me feel any less depressed i still want to kill myself. I have two bottles of Nembutal that I plan to use in the next couple of weeks. I miss this site so much and i want to find someone I can trust here because i want to document my ctb I feel like it will give me more motivation to do it. Thanks any message is appreciated ♥️♥️
 
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slowdance

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Dec 19, 2024
86
Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scams
 
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Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
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Sorry it didn't work out how you wanted the attempt to go. Know its okay that it failed with us as we won't shame you that it didn't work. I hope you can find a way to get out of your suffering one way or another.
 
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theshund

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Jan 1, 2025
107
Where the hell did you get N? That's like the holy grail of ctb.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Sucks that your attempt does not work but sounds like you have a back up. Also really happy that your psych stay was not traumatizing! 🫂
 
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notahappygirl

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Jun 6, 2023
188
Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scamsy

Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scams
Yes I got it in a Vet in Tijuana México
Sorry it didn't work out how you wanted the attempt to go. Know its okay that it failed with us as we won't shame you that it didn't work. I hope you can find a way to get out of your suffering one way or another.
Thank you 🥹
Where the hell did you get N? That's like the holy grail of ctb.
Tijuana Mexico
 
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J&L383

Enlightened
Jul 18, 2023
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It's good you got N, which is better than SN. I wish you the best. 🤗
 
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theshund

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Jan 1, 2025
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,997
I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace from suffering.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
I'm sorry your attempt failed. It sounds like a horrible experience. I'm terrified to drink that. You're so lucky you have N. Maybe I should plan a trip to get me some. Do I need a pet to go see a vet there? I know you're in recovery but can you explain what you said and did to get N please 🙏 I hope you're feeling better and they are treating you good.
 
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notahappygirl

Student
Jun 6, 2023
188
I'm sorry your attempt failed. It sounds like a horrible experience. I'm terrified to drink that. You're so lucky you have N. Maybe I should plan a trip to get me some. Do I need a pet to go see a vet there? I know you're in recovery but can you explain what you said and did to get N please 🙏 I hope you're feeling better and they are treating you good.
You dont need a pet. I got the source from another member here. No questions ask. Anything you would like to know you can message me :)
 
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orderphil91

Member
Sep 8, 2024
32
How was your attempt with SN? Did you do the purity tests before the attempt?
 

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