Venting I don’t want to get better

[breezy999]

I've had depression and other mental illnesses for several years now. I've only now come to the realization that I don't want to get better. I have no motivation or energy to try to improve myself and in the cases where I have short bursts of motivation and energy, it's very short lived. I also became so comfortable with depression as if it's a part of me and I wouldn't even know who I was if I was cured from it. I often use it as a crutch and sometimes it benefits me such as people caring about me, not having to do certain tasks, even avoiding social interactions.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I don't want to get better either.

 

[silence ends]

If u dont want it's always your choice. By choice i dont mean change would be easy at all. Its really hard, if even possible.
But there's choice that u can try if u want.
When u've tried and after that got realization that u cant get better, that's crushing.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I want to. I just know I can't.

 

[Hotsackage]

Me neither, not with this brain

 

[Aim]

I would love to get better, but I don't- no matter what. So fuX me!

 

[Kit1]

I wish I could get better.