Venting I don't want a future.

[diytopsurgery]

Like title says. It feels like every relationship- family, friends, lovers- ends up bitter and toxic. I don't know if it's me or them anymore.

All 3 of my exes were awful people and I went along with it. It feels like I attract negativity and I don't want my future to be this bleak.

I'm scared of what's after this life but I don't think it could be worse than this. At this point I'd like to go to sleep and never wake up.

 

[Enlighten]

Sometimes when you go through trauma, you have a tendency to reach back for similar people. It's because that is something you know and you subconsciously desire it, even if it is bad for you. It becomes really hard to think objectively. I hope you can reflect on that and find a good partner.