Venting I don't want a fucking funeral

[Treku]

people don't care about me now so why would I let them have the satisfaction of faking it after I ctb.
they can fuck off.

 

[Enlighten]

people don't care about me now so why would I let them have the satisfaction of faking it after I ctb.
they can fuck off.

I'm sorry the people around you are twofaced. The world can be a cruel place sometimes.
I would love to talk to you and i genuinely care about you.

 

[brokeandbroken]

people don't care about me now so why would I let them have the satisfaction of faking it after I ctb.
they can fuck off.

Precisely a whole of people abandoned me in my time of need. It can't be considered anything other then incredibly disrespectful to show up when I'm dead. Let me die how I've been. Alone.

 

[Treku]

I'm sorry the people around you are twofaced. The world can be a cruel place sometimes.
I would love to talk to you and i genuinely care about you.

thanks. it's amazing how people i don't even know show more care than the people i have been stuck with my entire life. wtf

 

[letmejoindeath]

In order to have a funeral people would have to show up.

 

[Decayed]

me neither the thought of my parents getting sympathy makes me sick

 

[Treku]

me neither the thought of my parents getting sympathy makes me sick

i know the feeling

 

[bridgegirl]

I don't want one either. People won't be in my life now then they can stay away when I'm gone. I can't stand fakery. No one would truly care anyway. My mom would just like the attention.

 

[DeadlineDialer]

I often feel like I'm the weird one when I think about exactly this, because it seems a lot of people don't feel the same. I always hear them talk about how they always want to be remembered after they die or CTB or whatever, living on in people's minds forever and always. That's my nightmare, I just want to fall off this world and drift completely into obscurity. Good memories, bad memories, I don't care what it is, if I'm in it I want out. I don't like the people around me, I hate being looked at, I don't care for all these formalities. I don't want anyone to know anything about me, and it's not that I'm too good for all of it, I just want all of this to go away like a bad dream. I'll shoot the shit here and there on sites like this, but only cause I revel in the anonymity, however thin it may be. If I could just erase myself and any piteous legacy left behind I would, but I know people will try to do the opposite assuming it's "what I would have wanted" like every other decision they've tried to make for me. Guess I'll be dead and I won't have to worry about it afterwards, but the thought makes me sick while I'm here.

 

[Treku]

I often feel like I'm the weird one when I think about exactly this, because it seems a lot of people don't feel the same. I always hear them talk about how they always want to be remembered after they die or CTB or whatever, living on in people's minds forever and always. That's my nightmare, I just want to fall off this world and drift completely into obscurity. Good memories, bad memories, I don't care what it is, if I'm in it I want out. I don't like the people around me, I hate being looked at, I don't care for all these formalities. I don't want anyone to know anything about me, and it's not that I'm too good for all of it, I just want all of this to go away like a bad dream. I'll shoot the shit here and there on sites like this, but only cause I revel in the anonymity, however thin it may be. If I could just erase myself and any piteous legacy left behind I would, but I know people will try to do the opposite assuming it's "what I would have wanted" like every other decision they've tried to make for me. Guess I'll be dead and I won't have to worry about it afterwards, but the thought makes me sick while I'm here.

yeah I know it won't be my problem once I'm gone but it doesn't change how little I want it to happen. they shouldn't be allowed the satisfaction.

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

I would have a funeral just so funeral doom can be played at it.

 

[nozomu]

people don't care about me now so why would I let them have the satisfaction of faking it after I ctb.
they can fuck off.

This is exactly why I wrote in my will, and told my partner that I do not want a funeral.

Be with me in life, rather than pretending you were there after I was gone.

Edit: like it really actually pisses me off to think about anyone mourning my death at this point besides my partner because everyone is leaving me for dead. I really need help and support but no one's coming. My partner is the only person who even really bothers to speak to me most days. I really don't understand why anyone else would feel entitled to mourn me.

 

[MidnightGloom]

I'd really fucking hate to have a funeral too. Nobody in my life has ever given a shit about how I really feel, who I am, or any aspect of my life. It's sickening to think of how after death people will speak at my funeral as if they ever really knew what I was like. I swear, even if I ctb, they'll speak at my funeral as if it was an accident or as if I had no reason to. Fuck that.

 

[Treku]

I'd really fucking hate to have a funeral too. Nobody in my life has ever given a shit about how I really feel, who I am, or any aspect of my life. It's sickening to think of how after death people will speak at my funeral as if they ever really knew what I was like. I swear, even if I ctb, they'll speak at my funeral as if it was an accident or as if I had no reason to. Fuck that.

yeah like wtf are they going to say?? like you abandoned me when I needed you and told me to ctb. anything other than that is absolute bullshit

 

[BlazingBob]

They can throw me in the damn trash. I don't have anyone in my life who'd arrange anything anyway.

 

[zeek]

luckily in my culture you dont get a funeral if you kys

 

[Forever Sleep]

You can prepay for a cremation with no service. I intend to do this if I die after my Dad. It's more because my family and friends live hundreds of miles away. I haven't seen most of them in 5, 10, some even 20 years. I don't want them to feel obliged to travel. Plus, I'm not very religious. Funerals tend to really annoy me with all that religious stuff.

What really annoys me is how expensive it is. Even a bare basic cremation. Plus, it seems to cost more when you prepay. I don't understand that at all- they're getting money upfront. I guess it's because some people pay way ahead of time though and avoid the inflation. Lol.

 

[Treku]

You can prepay for a cremation with no service. I intend to do this if I die after my Dad. It's more because my family and friends live hundreds of miles away. I haven't seen most of them in 5, 10, some even 20 years. I don't want them to feel obliged to travel. Plus, I'm not very religious. Funerals tend to really annoy me with all that religious stuff.

What really annoys me is how expensive it is. Even a bare basic cremation. Plus, it seems to cost more when you prepay. I don't understand that at all- they're getting money upfront. I guess it's because some people pay way ahead of time though and avoid the inflation. Lol.

i didn't think but it sounds like a lot of work and i still don't want people around me to even have a chance to lie about how they acted even if i am only ash. i just need to be gone.

 

[ChiseHatori]

I feel quite the same... I hate the idea of even more money being wasted on me.

If it was a private gathering with no cost just to help them mourn, then I wouldnt mind as much; even though I don't think they'd have much to mourn anyway.