Annabella
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- Jan 13, 2021
- 25
I've always felt pressure in the right side of my head, right above my ear, like there was a ball of gum that made it impossible to connect with that side of my head.
What I observed is that the first thing that disappeared because of my stress induced Anhedonia is my ability to recall what I did yesterday/2,3 days before. I tried to recall what I did 3 days before and that awful pressure that I always feel above my head, like a ball of gum, started expanding in pretty much the entire right side of my head. It felt like something deep in the right side of my head was expanding and then decreasing in size. Not only this, but my right ear felt like it was clogged with water too. This feeling of expansion reached many parts of my brain, in the beginning somewhere deep,in the right side of my brain and in front, then it started to go to the back of my brain but it still didn't reach the complete end of it if I make any sense. It felt like someone managed apply anesthesia to that part of my brain. Rigth now it feels like there is something that "died" right in the middle of my brain, in the sense that I feel the rest of my mind well except of that awful spot. At first I thought it was the hippocampus but I don't think it's only that part of the brain that is acting like this, there are many things deep inside of my brain that don't seem to be working right . Has anyone else been through something like this? Btw the pressure becomes so bad it almost hurts, sometimes it has a Metallic ting to it.I am completely emotionally numb, I lack all cravings for food, I get chronic insomnia, no appetite, no feelings of pleasure, no motivation. It's almost like the universe wants me to kill myself, I literally lost my entire will to live and I barely feel human anymore. What other choice do I have except killing myself?
I know that life sucks, there is a lot of chronic stress and suffering in this world, but even back when I was in debt yet mentally healthy I still found joy in walking outside or reading books, I still had hope that everything will be alright. I think that most people that DO commit suicide are the ones that are suffering from chronic mental illness/physical illnesses.
Has anyone else been through something like this or am I one of a kind? What can it be (ps:don't tell me to go to the doctor, I want to hear your advice, I've done a RMN 3 months ago and everything was fine, truth be told this awful sensation started 1 month ago)
What I observed is that the first thing that disappeared because of my stress induced Anhedonia is my ability to recall what I did yesterday/2,3 days before. I tried to recall what I did 3 days before and that awful pressure that I always feel above my head, like a ball of gum, started expanding in pretty much the entire right side of my head. It felt like something deep in the right side of my head was expanding and then decreasing in size. Not only this, but my right ear felt like it was clogged with water too. This feeling of expansion reached many parts of my brain, in the beginning somewhere deep,in the right side of my brain and in front, then it started to go to the back of my brain but it still didn't reach the complete end of it if I make any sense. It felt like someone managed apply anesthesia to that part of my brain. Rigth now it feels like there is something that "died" right in the middle of my brain, in the sense that I feel the rest of my mind well except of that awful spot. At first I thought it was the hippocampus but I don't think it's only that part of the brain that is acting like this, there are many things deep inside of my brain that don't seem to be working right . Has anyone else been through something like this? Btw the pressure becomes so bad it almost hurts, sometimes it has a Metallic ting to it.I am completely emotionally numb, I lack all cravings for food, I get chronic insomnia, no appetite, no feelings of pleasure, no motivation. It's almost like the universe wants me to kill myself, I literally lost my entire will to live and I barely feel human anymore. What other choice do I have except killing myself?
I know that life sucks, there is a lot of chronic stress and suffering in this world, but even back when I was in debt yet mentally healthy I still found joy in walking outside or reading books, I still had hope that everything will be alright. I think that most people that DO commit suicide are the ones that are suffering from chronic mental illness/physical illnesses.
Has anyone else been through something like this or am I one of a kind? What can it be (ps:don't tell me to go to the doctor, I want to hear your advice, I've done a RMN 3 months ago and everything was fine, truth be told this awful sensation started 1 month ago)
