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I don't know if it's wrong of me but I actually wish I could relate to them, minus giving platitudes to suicidal people as i don't want to do that. I can't even imagine being in their shoes; it's just so incomprehensible to me. To have such a good quality of life..
It's not what happens to you, it's what doesn't happen to you. Research pretty clearly shows it.
Outside of the obvious, extreme/chronic stuff.
I agree. Life is so tiring and exhausting. I hate having to live it. Every day I get more and more tired and fatigued, and the thought of non-existence and ctb becomes more appealing. Life just seems like responsibilities and obligations that I never wanted in the first place.
I know I'm not the person you replied to but I'm curious as to what exactly you mean. Is it okay if you can clarify?
Yes, exactly this. Especially that last sentence. I was born against my consent and now responsibilities are forced upon me? Same goes for you and everybody else here. It's unfortunate that it's like this. I never asked for any of these responsibilities.. it's just too much for me. And what's horrifying to me is that I don't even have it that bad yet. Like I'm not employed or independent. The idea of me being in complete cessation of life sounds so blissful
it's literally exhausting to continually be this exhausted.Everyone goes through shit. Some people have even been tortured to near death very slowly and shit like that, but not commit suicide so it's clearly not what you go through, but how you were raised, the support you have after something traumatic, etc. You can probably throw genetics and other stuff in there, but what happens to you is only one factor that has never been an absolute barometer for suicide. Think about schizophrenia. Nothing happens to schizophrenic people. They just turn out that way because of nature + nurture. I specifically mention what doesn't happen to you because childhood neglect can have physically fatal consequences that are even worse than childhood abuse. That, and the support system thing after trauma is a huge factor. Also, not breaking out of chronic abuse/trauma is often a "what doesn't happen to you" situation more than anything because it typically requires you being saved in some way.
I see existence in the exact same way. For me, death is complete freedom and existence is a prison. Hopefully we get free from our prison as quickly as possible
Since I injured my neck life has been a chore. Just woke up from a nap in cold darkness at 7pm feeling scared and deeply lonely.
