Garf125
Member
- Sep 21, 2023
- 24
I really feel my main issue is I have too much to choose from. So many roads in all directions I can't tell which way is up or down. Im desperate for stability but my life gets upended every time I'm just about getting used to it. I want to be given a role that I can live comfortably in and know it's never going to change (like a medieval monk) but the world is not made for me, I am not made for the world and the time for such things has long since passed. I idealize death so much as it's the ultimate representation of that that I'm willing to give up everything for.