i dont think i can withstand these feeling longer..

[SweetMemories]

i just need to get away from my mind. the night was horrible. these dumb noises in my head dont let me sleep.. my landlord wants to through me out. the tinnitus makes everything unbearable since it broke out again and i never felt so depressed in my life. i can't even concentrate so i will propably jump from a high building or such.

i am sorry.. i don't want to die. I just can't endure the constant torture anymore..

 

[itsgone2]

Same
Four months. No break
At some point we crack. What then?

 

[SweetMemories]

you are four month in with tinnitus?

 

[itsgone2]

No sorry four months of thinking about suicide. Just relating to the constant torture

 

[LaBrava]

I'm also struggling with tinnitus, which has spiked due to a cold.

 

[SweetMemories]

i hope you are getting better. for me it is not a spike it is like i failed out of habituation and starting this process all over after 9 years with it. I am tired because 2022 this also happened and it was torture. Till then i have developed moderate me/cfs from my 2nd tinnitus battle. It was so compensated that i couldn't even heared it in quiet rooms. It is just too much.. i cannot got through this again, especially with the reactiveness now on top of that. I can't do anything anymore, because there is always the tones over the sounds and if i, for example, look at a 30 minute video, it just spike my tinnitus.. so little to no distraction as well.

 

[LaBrava]

Mine is also reactive. The big issue for me is sleep. Haven't had a good nights sleep in months. I have sleeping pills for the next three nights then I'm back to it.

 

[SweetMemories]

shit, man. I am so sorry.. i have very fragmented sleep, but i sleep. I hope you can at least find some energy and peace over these three nights. I have heared from spikes which are getting better after six months. stay patient. I am wishing you good luck, i really do. This affliction is just horrible.