i don't really want to die, i just want the pain to be over.

[lanadelreyisgod223]

the title is a quote from my favorite song and it's exactly how i feel. i'm terrified of dying, i don't want to die, but the pain of my existence is too much. to have the pain and suffering creep back in as you're happy and thought you had an escape from it. getting what you want, being out with friends/family and having a good time, yet having the realization in those happy moments that you still don't want to be here. constantly having a longing to be gone and seeing no future for yourself. i wish i was dead already

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

I know a similar lyric. "I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay" Life has many things that makes you wanna stay. Infact we are biologically wired to want to. But we also recognise the absurdity of our existance. People handle it in different ways. I hope you find the way thats best for you. Sending many hugs