I don't really know what this is, so I'm titling it this

[motel rooms]

If I could have held you once more with that light...
It's nothing to you, but it keeps me alive
Like a Valentine's Day
It's a Valentine's heart anyway

The King and the Ages, they fall by the plan
It's always the tired and the ordinary man
It's the challenge, it's funny and such
I want to see you again, I want to see you again
It's so simple and plain
But I'll come back and see you again



Valentine

Not a red rose or a satin heart.
I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
It promises light
like the careful undressing of love.

Here.
It will blind you with tears
like a lover.
It will make your reflection
a wobbling photo of grief.
I am trying to be truthful.

Not a cute card or a kissogram.
I give you an onion.
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,
possessive and faithful
as we are,
for as long as we are.

-- Carol Ann Duffy

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Hopefully you are having a Happy Valentine's Day.

 

[motel rooms]

One day I know we'll find a place of hope
Just hold on to me, just hold on to me

Walk tight, one line, you're wanted this time
Just hold on to me, just hold on to me

I walk, I wade through full lands, and lonely
I stumble, I stumble
With you I wait to be born again
With love comes the day, just hold on to me

One day I know there'll be a place called home

 

[motel rooms]

"I think it's dark and it looks like rain
And the wind is blowing like
It's the end of the world," you said
And then you smiled for a second

Sometimes you make me feel
Like I'm living at the edge of the world
Living at the edge of the world
"It's just the way I smile," you said

 

[motel rooms]

You got my head filled with songs
You got my shoelaces undone
Take my shirt, go on, take it off me
You can tear it up if you can tie me down

Do you feel loved?
Do you feel loved?

With my fingers as you want them
With my nails under your hide
With my teeth at your back
And my tongue to tell you the sweetest lies

Do you feel loved?

And it looks like the sun
But it feels like the rain, oh
But there's heat in the sun
To see us through the rain

Do you feel loved?
Do you feel?
Do you feel?

 

[motel rooms]

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

 

[motel rooms]

Sweetheart, the sun has set
All red and primitive above our heads
Blood-stained on an ageless sky
Wipe your tears and let the salt stains dry
Let them all run dry, all run dry...

 

[motel rooms]

By day give thanks
By night beware
Half the world in sweetness
The other in fear

When the darkness takes you
With her hand across your face
Don't give in too quickly
Find the thing she's erased

The table, the guitar
The empty glass
All will blend together when
Daylight has passed

Find the line, find the shape
Through the grain
Find the outline, things will
Tell you their name

Now I watch you falling into sleep
Watch your fist curl against the sheet
Watch your lips fall open and
Your eyes dim in blind faith

I would shelter you
Keep you in light
But I can only teach you
Night vision
Night vision

 

[motel rooms]

Sweat it all out
In our electric storms and our shifting sands
Our candy jars and our sticky hands
Sweat it all out, sweat it all out, sweat it all out...

(You should be sleeping, my love
Tell me what you're dreaming of...)

 

[motel rooms]

Cruel is the night that covers up your fears
Tender is the one that wipes away your tears
There must be a bitter breeze
To make you sting so viciously
They say the greatest coward
Can hurt the most ferociously
But I'll show you something good
Oh, I'll show you something good...

 

[motel rooms]

I'm looking way out at the ocean
Love to see that green water in motion
I'm going to get a boat
And we can row it
If you ever get the notion
To be needed by me

When you dig down deep
You lose good sleep
And it makes you heavy company
I will always love you
Our hands alike...
Magnet and iron
Our souls...

 

[motel rooms]

Oh, but you're in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter, yet so sweet
I could drink a case of you, darling
Still I'd be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

 

[motel rooms]

Full, full moon and
That same sad nature
I wanna cover every inch of you
Like ink on paper
Like the blind parade of souls
Consumed by religion
I can't wait till I get you
In that defenseless position

When we set the prairie on fire
Oh, we go down to the water
Naked and slow
You and me and the heart of desire
We set the prairie on fire
How hard will the wind blow?
How far will it go?

When this feeling burns down
To one solitary color
The velocity of longing
Melting into each other
It's a song our fingers play
All at once and together
You can bet we never learned it
But we've known it forever

Oh, I dreamed that we were flying
Carried up from the ashes
Black silhouettes of velvet
Against the crimson of passion
We can almost hear the echoes
From the smoldering meadow
It's the rapture of the angels
And the rage of the Devil

In the cool dusk of horses
Through the rusted wires of sleep
With our arms around midnight
We're headed for release
We go riding in the wind
We go riding in the dark
Riding, riding, oh, oh...

When we set the prairie on fire
We go down to the water
Naked and slow
You and me, you and me
And the heart of desire
We set the prairie on fire
How hard will the wind blow?
How far will it go?
How far will it go?

 

[motel rooms]

This is where
Your sanity gives in
And love begins
Never lose your grip
Don't trip, don't fall
You'll lose it all
The sweetest way to die...

 

[motel rooms]

A stone's throw from Jerusalem
I walked a lonely mile in the moonlight
And though a million stars were shining
My heart was lost on a distant planet
That whirls around the April moon
Whirling in an arc of sadness
I'm lost without you, I'm lost without you
Though all my kingdoms
Turn to sand and fall into the sea
I'm mad about you, I'm mad about you

From the dark secluded valleys
I heard the ancient songs of sadness
But every step I thought of you
Every footstep only you
Every star a grain of sand
The leavings of a dried-up ocean
Tell me, how much longer,
How much longer?

I'm mad about you, I'm mad about you

 

[motel rooms]

Just a perfect day
You made me forget myself
I thought I was someone else
Someone good...

Such a perfect day
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on...

 

[motel rooms]

And you saw me
From the cathedral
Well, I'm an ancient heart

Yes, you saw me
From the cathedral
And here we are, just falling apart

You catch me
I am tired
I want all that you are

 

[motel rooms]

Thank you for holding my bleeding head, thank you for giving me some silence.

 

[motel rooms]

What would I do? What would I do
If I did not have you?

Open up and let me in
Let's go down the waterfall
Have ourselves a good time, it's nothing at all
It's nothing at all, nothing at all

Keep it moving, keep it moving
Aaaah-ah aaaah-ah aaaaaaah

 

[motel rooms]

Hold your breath and count to ten
And fall apart and start again
Hold your breath and count to ten
Start again, start again...
Start again, start again...

 

[ArcherFiles44]

Hi, my name is @hotelbeneathground, I'm 40, I suffer from C-PTSD & hypersexuality disorder (sex addiction) due to CSA (childhood sexual abuse) & I'm not sure I belong in the Recovery section. Not so long ago I was sure I was ready to ctb, but I ended up having a mini breakdown & starting a relationship with someone I thought was as doomed as me & would help me destroy myself. We got married instead. Our lives are still a mess, but I suppose I'm in love & I feel loved, so I kind of, sort of don't wanna die as much as I used to or whatever. Starting a thread in Recovery feels real weird, almost a bit humiliating, never thought it would come to this for me.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-hope-this-is-a-goodbye.73128/page-2#post-1326456

You deserve Love

 

[motel rooms]

Breathe out
So I can breathe you in, hold you in
And now I know you've always been
Out of your head
Out of my head I sang
And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when

 

[motel rooms]

I wake you up in the middle of the night
To express my love for you
Stroke your skin and feel you
Naked I can feel all of you
At the same moment

Every single time we've ever touched each other
Every single fuck we had together
Is in a wondrous time lapse
With us here at this moment
The history of touches
Every single archive
Compressed into a second
All with us here as I wake you up

 

[Eternally Dottie]

Breathe out
So I can breathe you in, hold you in
And now I know you've always been
Out of your head
Out of my head I sang
And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when

Love these lyrics - 'breathe out, so I can breathe you in'..
RIP Taylor

I wake you up in the middle of the night
To express my love for you
Stroke your skin and feel you
Naked I can feel all of you
At the same moment

Every single time we've ever touched each other
Every single fuck we had together
Is in a wondrous time lapse
With us here at this moment
The history of touches
Every single archive
Compressed into a second
All with us here as I wake you up

Beautiful

 

[motel rooms]

Love these lyrics - 'breathe out, so I can breathe you in'..

I love everything about "Everlong". I don't like anything Dave Grohl has recorded since 1997, though.

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you
Matter of fact
Oh oh oh... I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender
I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored?
I cannot be without you
Matter of fact
Oh oh oh... I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
Another heart is cracked in two
I'm on your back...

 

[Eternally Dottie]

I love everything about "Everlong". I don't like anything Dave Grohl has recorded since 1997, though.

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you
Matter of fact
Oh oh oh... I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender
I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored?
I cannot be without you
Matter of fact
Oh oh oh... I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
Another heart is cracked in two
I'm on your back...

I love this song too, it's so dreamy - it takes you somewhere else when you listen to it. Dave Grohl sings so beautifully. Agree, I wouldn't consider myself a huge Foo's fan generally although some of the early stuff I really love

 

[motel rooms]

I do still sometimes put my hand across
And I feel as yours gets placed on top
We drive along these empty streets
Same old ones they've always been

I can still hear your heartbeat in the dark
We're still setting up the same old sparks
Pull me close and we lay still
Wrap my toes around your heel

And if I light these matches just to watch 'em burn
And I forget to keep myself warm
Then I suppose I really do
I suppose it must be true
That there will always be a place aside
For you
There will always be a place inside
For you

 

[motel rooms]

Bad blood and ghosts wrapped tight around me
Nothing could ever seem to touch me
Did you know I was lost until you found me?

 

[motel rooms]

For we have fallen from our shelves
To face the truth about ourselves
We have tumbled from our trees
Tumbled from our trees

And I can almost...
I can almost hear the rain falling
And it feels so good, so good
So let's go out into the rain again
Just like we said we always would

 

[motel rooms]

Money can't buy it, baby
Sex can't buy it, baby
Drugs can't buy it, baby
You can't buy it, baby
I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe that love alone might do these things for you