Venting I don't know why I can't just hang myself.

[FunkoGatito]

It's so frustrating.
I tried to, in 2019. It was scary and it was crushing my airway instead of pressing on the arteries or wtv is supposed to happen.
I don't get why I'm too scared to do it.
My boyfriend died by hanging and my bestfriend died in the psychward by I assume hanging too.
Why can't I just do it?
Why am I so scared of it hurting?
It's so scary.
Why am I being such a pussy about it.
I overdosed on 30g of tylenol last year but got brought to the hospital a few hours later (wasn't dead just delirious af) and yeah. That was terrifying. I wouldn't do that again.
I'm just so tired.
Idk what to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just not straightforward to die after all, to me hanging sounds like a difficult method to go through with, I find it so cruel how people have to resort to methods like this in the first place and cannot just die peacefully when they wish to. But anyway I understand why you'd feel so frustrated, I get that it's so dreadful and tiring feeling trapped in this existence.

 

[FunkoGatito]

Try seeing if anything here helps maybe

Best way to succeed partial hanging

Last week, I have been practicing different ways of doing partial hanging and will share which method has worked the best out of all. In order to succeed partial hanging, is to fully block the carotid arteries on both sides of your neck, around 80-90% of the blood flow in the blood vessels has...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks, I had trouble finding it

 

[FunkoGatito]

Are you wanting to join your bestie and bf in the land of the dead then?

I'm not sure yet
It feels like the world is an ocean and I'm just floating in the middle, yk?
Idk I'm just there, floating into space, but meteors are hitting me