toxicjester
I’m just a baby seal 💜🦭
- Dec 11, 2023
- 238
The way I had to CTB before was a concoction of hydroxyzine and opioids and I was going to drink and smoke until I passed out and never woke up. I don't need to be told that my method was bad or that it'd make me be in agony the whole time if it worked. The pain before death was sort of the point
But my pills got taken and I don't know what to do now. I can always try to hang myself with a belt in the door, but that's how I've tried to do it the last couple of times and it's never worked I get too freaked out about it. I don't have access to SN nor am I smart enough to find where the newest seller is and how to get that plus the other stuff from the black market.
The only other thing is that I might have access to a gun that takes .22 short. But that's laughable. Especially because the gun is fucking tiny, I saw a video of a guy testing it on some cans and it didn't even knock over the can. Horrible gun, even if I shoved it way back in my throat I doubt it'd do enough damage
I don't want to keep going. I'm so tired all the time. Seals can't save me forever. Mama was never real
But my pills got taken and I don't know what to do now. I can always try to hang myself with a belt in the door, but that's how I've tried to do it the last couple of times and it's never worked I get too freaked out about it. I don't have access to SN nor am I smart enough to find where the newest seller is and how to get that plus the other stuff from the black market.
The only other thing is that I might have access to a gun that takes .22 short. But that's laughable. Especially because the gun is fucking tiny, I saw a video of a guy testing it on some cans and it didn't even knock over the can. Horrible gun, even if I shoved it way back in my throat I doubt it'd do enough damage
I don't want to keep going. I'm so tired all the time. Seals can't save me forever. Mama was never real
