
PotentiallyWasted
Breaths through his nose
- Jul 20, 2025
- 105
I think life can be worth living. I really do. I think being suicidal is a mental illness sometimes if not most times that can be cured, or at least I hope so.
Basically what I want to say is that I don't know if I should either seek help or simply kill myself, but I know I must choose one because I can't keep going like this. This endless cycle consisting of being ultra depressed and suicidal for like a month and then moving on to passive suicidal ideation thinking i'm better just to be met with the fact that the urge to kill myself will eventually come back, stronger.
What I fear is going to therapy just for it not to work and for my loved ones to see me differently for going to it. I live with my parents and siblings since I don't have enough money yet to move out, so eventually they will have to know i'm going to therapy.
Killing myself feels like the better option. It looks more attractive. Sometimes I even get aroused by the mere thought of it.
I don't know, what do y'all think..?
Basically what I want to say is that I don't know if I should either seek help or simply kill myself, but I know I must choose one because I can't keep going like this. This endless cycle consisting of being ultra depressed and suicidal for like a month and then moving on to passive suicidal ideation thinking i'm better just to be met with the fact that the urge to kill myself will eventually come back, stronger.
What I fear is going to therapy just for it not to work and for my loved ones to see me differently for going to it. I live with my parents and siblings since I don't have enough money yet to move out, so eventually they will have to know i'm going to therapy.
Killing myself feels like the better option. It looks more attractive. Sometimes I even get aroused by the mere thought of it.
I don't know, what do y'all think..?
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