reviveneon
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- Oct 18, 2020
- 25
I have no one to talk to, so perhaps friends on here can give me any advice or help.
Me and my boyfriend know eachother for around 8 years, but live together for 1,5 years. I do have my own little student room in the city, but most of the times I'm with him.
I left my parents to be with him, and also because I'm an ex-muslim.
Over the past year, he had cheated on me 8 times (one time with a minor), and I have found out he was seeing his ex when we were long distance. Everytime I found out, I got mad and upset, and he would punch me hard. Last week I found out again. Everytime he says it's not serious and that he doesn't feel well mentally because of me.
The past time I got so upset, I decided to pay a visit to my parents, who I've been ignoring for a year. It went great, I feel loved there.
He is now threatening to kill himself if I dont come back. I hate him, but I also love him so much, we grew up together, we have exactly the same interests and opinions. I'm scared I will never find someone like that anymore. I don't want him dead, I don't know how to let go or if I should. Am I blind or delusional?
I tried to keep it as short as possible. I feel so helpless
Me and my boyfriend know eachother for around 8 years, but live together for 1,5 years. I do have my own little student room in the city, but most of the times I'm with him.
I left my parents to be with him, and also because I'm an ex-muslim.
Over the past year, he had cheated on me 8 times (one time with a minor), and I have found out he was seeing his ex when we were long distance. Everytime I found out, I got mad and upset, and he would punch me hard. Last week I found out again. Everytime he says it's not serious and that he doesn't feel well mentally because of me.
The past time I got so upset, I decided to pay a visit to my parents, who I've been ignoring for a year. It went great, I feel loved there.
He is now threatening to kill himself if I dont come back. I hate him, but I also love him so much, we grew up together, we have exactly the same interests and opinions. I'm scared I will never find someone like that anymore. I don't want him dead, I don't know how to let go or if I should. Am I blind or delusional?
I tried to keep it as short as possible. I feel so helpless