I Don't Know What I'm Supposed to Do to Make Money Right Now

[Paizen]

I literally got bullied and scammed out of my last 4 jobs... I am a very easy person to bully. I got assaulted at one of them, had to call the police and get humiliated by WSIB and now I have to file with the HRTO which apparently can take years before I get a response. I am so exhausted because my whole resume is just landscaping and driving and since I got a ticket I can't drive for a company and I can't even think about construction because it's so cutthroat for the new guys idk maybe it's just me. Like I said, I'm small and pathetic and very easy to push around.

I have a psychology degree, so the irony isn't lost on me that I can't cure my own depression. I can't work in my field without being registered with CRPO which requires a Master's and 1000 hours or something crazy of validated client hours or something. I started playing with Tarot and that's been fun, maybe a lot of suggestibility happening in my brain because of my depression but I feel like somethings are happening. I would like to continue living but I just do not have a goddamn clue how to make money outside of construction/driving which is what I've been doing for the past 7 years but I just can't do it anymore. I feel like I can't now. I really feel like I want to die but I can't tell anyone that either.

Oh well sorry to be depressing I just really don't know what to do. I feel the need to say this just to cover my own ass spiritually but yes don't kill yourselves, killing yourself is bad etc. But I just don't know what to do anymore.

I really wish I could help myself at this time, I don't really want to die yet, I just wish I had money or a job, or a friend

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

Oh well sorry to be depressing I just really don't know what to do.

No need apologize -- this isn't exactly the Everyone Is Dancing On Sunshine Forum.

Does your city or state have a Vocational Rehabilitation department? Most districts have a department that specializes in connecting people to work, especially if there is a career field change and especially if there is a mental health condition or disability at play.

A lot of larger libraries these days also have a career center that connects patrons to career resources. Many offer assistance with resumes as well.

 

[wantingdignity]

I'm so sorry that your work experiences have been shit. I know what it's like to panic over finances. I've been having to go to a food bank just to have something to eat. It sucks, but use what resources you have to get through until you figure out the next step.

Your next job could be your dream career, or it could just be something that sustains you while you heal from your last experience. I don't know if it will help, but you can mentally separate yourself from this crisis by imagining it like a video game. Your character's next quest is to pay bills. There are multiple ways to play this quest, and it's important that you monitor your health and increase your XP. You will likely have to increase your stats before you can level up. (I hope that made sense, I was rarely allowed to play video games growing up and I feel like a fake fan)

It's okay to have to start over. Use a food bank until you can get a job again. You got this