PassiveDeath113
Passively Living
- Jun 26, 2024
- 6
I honestly just don't know what to do it's all falling apart Im on academic probation I didn't even know I was on I'm de enrolled from my program I literally wasted years of my life I don't know what to do. I keep messing up with each mistake costing me more and more and just messing things up for those around me. I fail in eveyrthing not just academics but in in literally everything I do. I am doing everything else the way I supposedly should I am going to the gym eating healthy sleeping and have a good group of successful and hardworking friends yet why am I genuinely such a miserable piece of shit. I postpone my death so much and yet do nothing to improve I try and fail I don't know what to do. The more I wait the more people will be hurt by my absence and I just want it all to end. Might wait it out until 27 maybe Ill die on the way.
I tried going to a therapist and none of that worked I still failed I still became depressed and still have panic attacks had the same issues I was hoping Id have the ability to get through and yet nothing just thousands down the drain and now my issues are on file.
I want to try medication but I dont have time anymore Im busy with uni again and I just don'e know I see no future anymore Im just fucking doing whatever going in literaly circles. I would do anything to just not wake up tomorrow.
I tried going to a therapist and none of that worked I still failed I still became depressed and still have panic attacks had the same issues I was hoping Id have the ability to get through and yet nothing just thousands down the drain and now my issues are on file.
I want to try medication but I dont have time anymore Im busy with uni again and I just don'e know I see no future anymore Im just fucking doing whatever going in literaly circles. I would do anything to just not wake up tomorrow.
