Venting I Don't Know How Much More I Can Take...

[nzdarkshark]

Ok so...I'm pretty pissed at the moment.
It seems that I'm reminded more and more everyday what I shithole this world is. Well...not the 'world', but more the people.
The people of this world.
This realisation has lead me to definitely decide I need to die - as I do not want to live in a world with humanity so shitty like this.
I need to save up for Sn - so I will most likely be around a little longer.
End of January-start of Feburary is my date. Specifics will come when I get my materials.
Just needed to vent.

Love you all - you're more of a family than my real family is - you actually give me a choice.​

 

[Dead_Inside]

That sucks..... Why can't people just fuck off if they can't be nice ? Sorry for whatever happened.
I will never get over how I have met some of the kindest and most understanding people on this site who are just going to kill themselves - while the people who con me into fake friendships and the vile strangers who just make it their business to be cruel protect their lives so tenaciously.....

All the good people leave.

 

[Lunar]

People can really be utter bellends. I'm sorry.

You're welcome to vent here anytime. Good luck with your method (SN is mine too).

 

[dysfunctional]

I can't take anymore. But because I'm too scared to ctb, I will have too. Damnit.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I understand you. I can't take it anymore either. People always let us down. This world is crap.

Feel free to vent here, you're more than welcome. I hope you manage to get everything for your method.

 

[Retched]

I can't take anymore. But because I'm too scared to ctb, I will have too. Damnit.

I can't take being scared of ctb anymore! I feel ya. I'm failing miserably at it.

 

[dysfunctional]

I can't take being scared of ctb anymore! I feel ya. I'm failing miserably at it.

Universe give us the strength and focus to end our suffering.

 

[TiredHorse]

Universe give us the strength and focus to end our suffering.

The final prayer for the despondants.

 

[nzdarkshark]

Thanks for your responses guys.

I wish you all well with whatever you choose too.
I don't know how I'm going to get the cash for it but I'm desperate so I might force myself to work.

 

[nzdarkshark]

My friend told me if I do 'three near-impossible challanges' and complete them - he'd get me n.
This isn't a fucking game. Does he think this is a game?
He said if this 'treatment'/'cure' for depression he got from a naturopath (or something) doesn't work he'd let me ctb.

This isn't a game. I'm dead serious about this. I can't live in this world.
Everyday I wake up and have to live in a nightmare. No matter what I do everyday is pain. I'm reminded constantly that more than half the population of the world are assholes and dickheads who will do anything to get what they want...

I wish I could push my date forward - but even if I got all the materials I need where would I send them to? Can't send them to my house cos my parents could find it. Can't send it to a friends house cos the only friend I have is the one who knows my plans.
I just want out. I want away from this shithole nightmare.

 

[longingforrelease]

My friend told me if I do 'three near-impossible challanges' and complete them - he'd get me n.
This isn't a fucking game. Does he think this is a game?
He said if this 'treatment'/'cure' for depression he got from a naturopath (or something) doesn't work he'd let me ctb.

This isn't a game. I'm dead serious about this. I can't live in this world.
Everyday I wake up and have to live in a nightmare. No matter what I do everyday is pain. I'm reminded constantly that more than half the population of the world are assholes and dickheads who will do anything to get what they want...

I wish I could push my date forward - but even if I got all the materials I need where would I send them to? Can't send them to my house cos my parents could find it. Can't send it to a friends house cos the only friend I have is the one who knows my plans.
I just want out. I want away from this shithole nightmare.

your "friend's" proposition is really fucked up.

 

[nzdarkshark]

your "friend's" proposition is really fucked up.

It really is. I don't know if he knows that. He should - but I don't know if he does.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

My friend told me if I do 'three near-impossible challanges' and complete them - he'd get me n.

He's not a friend. Ditch his ass

 

[nzdarkshark]

He's not a friend. Ditch his ass

But he's the only person I have now.

 

[Lunar]

Maybe a PO Box? that's if you were able to get hold of some cash.

 

[nzdarkshark]

Maybe a PO Box? that's if you were able to get hold of some cash.

Perhaps - someone here on SS may be helping me out with cash for materials (bless their soul if there is anything to bless it) - I'll ask about a PO box too perhaps when I go ask about pick ups.