Venting I don't feel any joy anymore

[Baron]

I don't feel happy anymore. I only feel sad and empty. The only time I felt joy and happiness was when I cut myself. But just now I did it again and I feel nothing. I do feel the pain, but there is nothing else. I feel like I've been stripped of my only way to feel any good. I feel like I'm slowly descending into madness. An unending cycle of pain and suffering until I finally break it when I ctb. I hate myself so much for not being able to fucking do it

 

[CrestfallenMima]

Same, I didn't even remember when was the last time I felt happiness
I hope you find peace in this world

 

[Victim.Of.Life]

I can relate.
Even when I'm with my friends I can't feel any happines.
It's not like it used to be...

 

[popcornheart]

I am also at that point myself. The only time I am feeling any sort of relief is when I am on this site, reading about ways to CTB.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Maybe you have Anhedonia like me. Inability to feel pleasure in things anymore.

 

[90starve]

i experience a complete lack of pleasure in doing anything these days - i think when you live like this, it's very hard to integrate with the rest of the world.

 

[Walilamdzii]

Ditto.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly see existence as being an endless cycle of suffering, there really is too much suffering in existing and I get that it's tiring feeling trapped here, I hate how suicide is so unnecessarily difficult.

 

[MrDarkness]

I only find slight joy when playing games, but is life worth living if I just keep playing games, I wanna die so badly

 

[Slasher]

when you first start playing a game you will enjoy the shit out of it, grind it for hours and actually enjoy it. once you start playing the game more and more you will start losing a bit of interest and after a certain point of playing it you won't enjoy it anymore. same thing with pleasure and happiness. shit like porn, tiktok, short form content, most games etc. will give you pleasure at first but will eventually fry your dopamine and serotonin receptors to hell and abusing these could cause irreversible damage. of course you have outliers that were born with something like this. try a proper dopamine detox for like a week and you'll see the world as if you were a child again. wish you the best of luck <3

 

[outrider567]

I don't feel happy anymore. I only feel sad and empty. The only time I felt joy and happiness was when I cut myself. But just now I did it again and I feel nothing. I do feel the pain, but there is nothing else. I feel like I've been stripped of my only way to feel any good. I feel like I'm slowly descending into madness. An unending cycle of pain and suffering until I finally break it when I ctb. I hate myself so much for not being able to fucking do it

'I don't feel happy, I only feel sad and empty' that's how I feel every day also

 

[leavingsoon99]

Yeah, I don't feel joy like I used to. I guess I was too naive and ignorant of life to realize that there's no joy to be had here. At least, from my perspective. Only now in the post-COVID age, everything just looks grey. It may just be me, but it looks like life has just taken a turn for the worse. People are worse. Food is worse. Weather is worse. Everything. I'm only happy when I'm dry-firing on myself. Other than that, There's no joy to be had here. Everything is crumbling, and always has been.