I don't even know you but...

[longingforrelease]

Only been to Hua Hin once. I normally go to Phuket. They have some amazing courses, Red Mountain, Laguna, Blue Canyon etc.

Golf is great here. I don't have the time to play as often as I'd like, but the courses are really nice. And it's a whole lot cheaper than back in the states

 

[Tokyojoe]

Golf is great here. I don't have the time to play as often as I'd like, but the courses are really nice. And it's a whole lot cheaper than back in the states

For real. What do you do in Hua Hin?

 

[longingforrelease]

Only been to Hua Hin once. I normally go to Phuket. They have some amazing courses, Red Mountain, Laguna, Blue Canyon etc.

Golf is great here. I don't have the time to play as often as I'd like, but the courses are really nice. And it's a whole lot cheaper

For real. What do you do in Hua Hin?

I'm a professor. Keeps me busy! What about you?

 

[Tokyojoe]

I was a fund manager but got fired because of early onset dementia.

 

[longingforrelease]

I was a fund manager but got fired because of early onset dementia.

Oh god, I'm so sorry. I know what it's like to lose a position that means something to you. In my case it was all of my own doing, though. I wish you well and hope you find some peace.

 

[Tokyojoe]

Oh god, I'm so sorry. I know what it's like to lose a position that means something to you. In my case it was all of my own doing, though. I wish you well and hope you find some peace.

Thanks, yeah I worked hard for that position starting off as an analyst and working over 60 hrs/week . Now I am just worthless and shouldn't hang around too much longer.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Guys i dont think @WaitingForTheBus is with us anymore, not heard from since last friday after his post about it being time

 

[CJM]

We are one messed up family, big cuddles all round...
...anyone?
...please??
...

 

[Tokyojoe]

We are one messed up family, big cuddles all round...
...anyone?
...please??
...

Sure dude, no homo:)

 

[longingforrelease]

Thanks, yeah I worked hard for that position starting off as an analyst and working over 60 hrs/week . Now I am just worthless and shouldn't hang around too much longer.

I so know what it's like to give so much of yourself to an institution and then have all that your worked for taken away. I think you've read some of my other posts so you know in my case the loss of my tenured university position was completely the result of my actions and choices. So I have no one else to blame. But the loss is immense and I know the feelings of worthlessness, I don't know about you, but I didn't realize until i got fired and spent two years looking for another teaching position (including one year selling cars to pay bills) how much what I did professionally made up my identity and sense of self worth. Sorry you're suffering in this way. It sucks

 

[Tokyojoe]

I so know what it's like to give so much of yourself to an institution and then have all that your worked for taken away. I think you've read some of my other posts so you know in my case the loss of my tenured university position was completely the result of my actions and choices. So I have no one else to blame. But the loss is immense and I know the feelings of worthlessness, I don't know about you, but I didn't realize until i got fired and spent two years looking for another teaching position (including one year selling cars to pay bills) how much what I did professionally made up my identity and sense of self worth. Sorry you're suffering in this way. It sucks

Losing a tenured post sucks, you are basically set up for life. I am so sorry...........

 

[longingforrelease]

Losing a tenured post sucks, you are basically set up for life. I am so sorry...........

thanks man. It was indeed a good gig!

 

[Swisher]

I've been a member of various forums over the years, form discussing sports to arcade machines to dogs. However, I never felt as welcome or as much as part of the "family" as what I do on here.

For a bunch of crazies that just want to kill themselves, there seems to be a lot of nice, genuine, supportive people around here. If only we could have local SS meet ups, a family get together if you like. Just maybe so many of us wouldn't be so lonely and feel like we're different or outcasts. It may even mean that we lose members for a different reason other than death.

I know why we are all here and what our end goal is, yet I feel saddened when another member decides it is their turn to ctb. I feel like we are losing a part of our little family. In some way, I wish that there was something I could do. At the very least, I wish I could be there with you when you ctb, just hold your hand or comfort you so you know that you are not alone in what would be a very difficult time.

That's beautiful. I was thinking a little about that too...at least an escape to meet others

 

[ganpres37]

I've been a member of various forums over the years, form discussing sports to arcade machines to dogs. However, I never felt as welcome or as much as part of the "family" as what I do on here.

For a bunch of crazies that just want to kill themselves, there seems to be a lot of nice, genuine, supportive people around here. If only we could have local SS meet ups, a family get together if you like. Just maybe so many of us wouldn't be so lonely and feel like we're different or outcasts. It may even mean that we lose members for a different reason other than death.

I know why we are all here and what our end goal is, yet I feel saddened when another member decides it is their turn to ctb. I feel like we are losing a part of our little family. In some way, I wish that there was something I could do. At the very least, I wish I could be there with you when you ctb, just hold your hand or comfort you so you know that you are not alone in what would be a very difficult time.

i agree. it's so nice to speak about something like suicide to someone who can relate. there are a large number of kind, supportive people on here. it's a shame that life makes such types of people want to kill themselves.

 

[Swisher]

I've been a member of various forums over the years, form discussing sports to arcade machines to dogs. However, I never felt as welcome or as much as part of the "family" as what I do on here.

For a bunch of crazies that just want to kill themselves, there seems to be a lot of nice, genuine, supportive people around here. If only we could have local SS meet ups, a family get together if you like. Just maybe so many of us wouldn't be so lonely and feel like we're different or outcasts. It may even mean that we lose members for a different reason other than death.

I know why we are all here and what our end goal is, yet I feel saddened when another member decides it is their turn to ctb. I feel like we are losing a part of our little family. In some way, I wish that there was something I could do. At the very least, I wish I could be there with you when you ctb, just hold your hand or comfort you so you know that you are not alone in what would be a very difficult time.

The title of your thread "I don't even know you, but" and the things you shared makes me think of a powerful line from the movie V for Vendetta. Perhaps some here can relate:
"But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you. I love you. With all my heart, I love you."

I've been a member of various forums over the years, form discussing sports to arcade machines to dogs. However, I never felt as welcome or as much as part of the "family" as what I do on here.

For a bunch of crazies that just want to kill themselves, there seems to be a lot of nice, genuine, supportive people around here. If only we could have local SS meet ups, a family get together if you like. Just maybe so many of us wouldn't be so lonely and feel like we're different or outcasts. It may even mean that we lose members for a different reason other than death.

I know why we are all here and what our end goal is, yet I feel saddened when another member decides it is their turn to ctb. I feel like we are losing a part of our little family. In some way, I wish that there was something I could do. At the very least, I wish I could be there with you when you ctb, just hold your hand or comfort you so you know that you are not alone in what would be a very difficult time.

Will you hold my hand? Please?

 

[longingforrelease]

Will you hold my hand? Please?

I would if I could friend.

 

[cap]

Guys i dont think @WaitingForTheBus is with us anymore, not heard from since last friday after his post about it being time

Yeah, I think he caught the bus.

 

[longingforrelease]

Yeah, I think he caught the bus.

so his last words to us were: Thanks for the kind words everyone.
I hope he felt the presence of our community at his passing. He was a lovely person.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I This post!

 

[MachineGunDani]

Aww Rest In Peace waitingforthebus

 

[longingforrelease]

so his last words to us were: Thanks for the kind words everyone.
I hope he felt the presence of our community at his passing. He was a lovely person.

just another thought. His final words are a good reminder for me that while on this site I should always try to keep my tone civil (even if I strongly disagree with someone's comments), and my message one of support, empathy and concern. Because what I say to someone here may well be the last message he or she receives. I hope I can remember this...

 

[Swisher]

I would if I could friend.

I have thought off this often. I have a house, privacy, and I feel pain when any of you hurt. I wanted to write a grant proposal. I've written a few. It would be a place for people to just get away, find a meal, talk to like- minded people, or be left to their own devices (obviously I wouldn't get a grant for ctb, but we could meet the "family" or hold hands in desperation. I don't even know you but I need you... now). All I need is your hand. This is my right. It's my body. I loved what you wrote.
Hold my hand...
I wish you could too

 

[longingforrelease]

I have thought off this often. I have a house, privacy, and I feel pain when any of you hurt. I wanted to write a grant proposal. I've written a few. It would be a place for people to just get away, find a meal, talk to like- minded people, or be left to their own devices (obviously I wouldn't get a grant for ctb, but we could meet the "family" or hold hands in desperation. I don't even know you but I need you... now). All I need is your hand. This is my right. It's my body. I loved what you wrote.
Hold my hand...
I wish you could too

That's a lovely vision. A big part of my pain is the loss of my family and now my separation from my young daughter who still lives with her mom in the states. And I miss touch. Every night before bed my daughter would ask me to tickle/scratch her back. I would give anything to have the opportunity to physically make contact with her in such a loving way. Now, however, I find the connections I make here the be the last, perhaps final, connections with other human beings that are available to me. it would be nice to hold the hand of a fellow traveller like you. A physical sense of communion grounded in our common experience with pain that the rest of the world seems unable to comprehend. Short of that, I can offer my sincere hope that you find peace, either in recover from your pain or in the release we are all considering here. blessings to you Swisher.

 

[Swisher]

Thanks, yeah I worked hard for that position starting off as an analyst and working over 60 hrs/week . Now I am just worthless and shouldn't hang around too much longer.

I feel the same way. I've never been surrounded by so many kind and understanding people in a forum. It does feel like a family. You don't get all the trivial bullshit here that you would find on other sites. Probably because everyone here knows what REAL pain is!

Wanna find the real crazies? Go to Facebook.

Haha! So true!
I missed this yesterday.

 

[Swisher]

Everyone here has been very Nice to me So far, but also very honest when they needed to.. and i love it. Can't find it anywhere else.

I am almost sad most people here are from far away otherwise I would definitly do a family meet up.

I really want to make it happen. Maybe in summer. Whoever is nearby. Or, come from Finland! Great. Amazon sent me the wrong air-matress 6 times! Six (6)??. They let me keep them. Food, cable, Smoke'm if ya got'em, Oreos with double stuff, Kumbaya....