i don't even know what needs to happen in my life so i won't feel the urge to kill myself

[NothingElseMatters]

fuck it man, i'm a lost cause.

 

[Pluto]

I feel the same way lately. Sometimes it is like my whole brain has been rewired around a single-minded focus on CTB.

 

[FuneralCry]

Everything is hopeless for me as well. I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. In my case nothing could ever make me want to live, I will be suicidal until I die. I wish you the best.

 

[symphony]

I hear that. Ideally I would prefer to live, but only if the life I get is bearable and worth living, and I can't even imagine something that could take me from where I am now to that point. Neither can mental health professionals, it seems.

 

[CommitSudoku]

The thought of dying is always such a constant even in the background, I'm not sure it's possible to get rid of. I wonder if anyone knows what the title brought up. I'd love to know since I can't even comprehend living without constant thoughts of how being dead would be better.

 

[DeepSlumber]

Well-phrased title for a post. Good question. What would need to change? I hate to do thought experiments and live in fantasy anymore, except when I'm making myself go blind, but winning the powerball wouldn't hurt.