Venting I don’t care about people who are scared of shootings

[katara]

I recently saw a video from a political YouTuber about how he was scared to go to an event where they are debating ai because he was scared someone would try to shoot him like that guy did to Charlie Kirk.
I just don't really care anymore. I don't have anybody who cares about me or my situation. I never got to go to any parties or events. I don't get to celebrate Halloween or go out ever. I was never taught any skills, never learned to drive, never got to go to prom. Instead my mom wanted to move me to an isolated part of the country, in a boomer area where all I hear when I sit outside is traffic. I don't really understand why I'm supposed to care about other people when they make fun of my situation or ignore me. I remember in high school some guy mentioned wanting to shoot up the school or made a comment about bringing a gun to school . I wish I would've said to him "do it". Nobody at my ghetto high school cared about each other. The more disgusting you are the more popular you are. Most people were rude and stupid. I'm tired of pretending I'm fine with everything, I actually hate those people and I think mass shootings are stupid but why should I care about them? Nobody cares that there's homeless people everywhere, even homeless kids. Nobody cares that it's impossible to live alone by only having one job. So what do u so if ur in a bad situation and don't have family to lean on? What am I supposed to do? But that's right nobody cares about somebody like me. I wish someone would've shot up my school, because every day was miserable.

Most people in the world are terrible and I experienced this at school and in my life. I didn't have anyone show that they cared. I felt unloved most of my life and I did what my mom told me to do and it ruined my life. I didn't do anything when I turned 16, didn't get a car, didn't do anything at 18. Didn't do anything at 21. Nobody will do anything to help me and I go online and see people crying about being scared of getting shot because everyone knows after you die nothing happens and ur gone forever. Instead of making the world better people only care when they think about their own death. It's just stupid, this whole country is stupid and selfish. I could've been born in a better country where everyone is nice and caring and people don't have to worry about getting sick and not being able to afford going to a doctor.
I hate this damn country and the people who move here. I see online people younger than me able to travel to multiple countries and then some of them say they are depressed? It's complete madness. Living under these terrible circumstances has made me realize we really are all alone in this life. If you aren't born with a support network you'll never make it in life and that's just not fair. I'm surprised under our terrible government there isn't more violence because it's fucking disgusting what our culture allows. I talk to people online who live in better places like recently I was talking to a Dutch guy. It looks so pretty where he lives. All the streets are walkable and his neighbors invite him over to play guitar. I can't even complain to people like him because they instantly always ask "are you in USA" like they just know without me telling them, everyone always knows where I live. How come everyone I talk to has all these amazing resources I don't. Even in India there mental health system is cheaper, how is it worse and more expensive where I live? I talked to this guy who mentioned the mental health he gets, so I looked it up because I never heard of it before, and I just don't get why it's more affordable in a third world country than where I live. Why is it always better everywhere else with every person I talk to it's the same shit. This just doesn't feel real anymore.
But I'm supposed to care about some stupid influencers online who have great lives that are scared of getting shot. I just think that's ridiculous when that's not even in the top 5 worst things about this country. I used to care about making the world better, but living here for so long has made me not care. If I got stabbed like that Ukrainian refugee did, the same thing would happen, everyone would just stand around and do nothing because that's what this country produces. More soulless evil people who just care about themselves. I guess I am slowly turning into everyone else and I just hate it. I'll never be able to afford anything or do anything or travel to amazing places like normal people to. I can't even afford the same mental health services they have in third world countries bc everything is more expensive here. Why would I care about a shooting when I'll never be able afford anything or do anything? If there were more shootings than maybe I could walk down the street without there being cars everywhere. I wish where I live I could just walk around and it was pretty and everything was nice instead of there being traffic and cars everywhere. There's nothing to do. Am I supposed to be worried about being shot? If I survived I'd just sit in a stupid hospital bed and then probably have a 10k bill. I just wouldn't pay it, I shouldn't have to pay for anything. My life is completely wasted and I have to hear about all the places everyone goes to and weddings and parties. I have to worry about the fact I'm going to die alone. I have to worry about the fact I'll have another thanksgiving and Halloween alone. I'll be alone on new years too. I could've been born in a country where they actually take care of their citizens and don't just ignore people who are suffering and them it's great living under capitalism and we should be greatful. I could've had a better life, but nobody in this capitalist shithole cares about me so I don't care about them anymore

 

[divinemistress36]

Im jealous Charlie Kirk got shot, wish it was me

 

[katara]

Im jealous Charlie Kirk got shot, wish it was me

Sorry, and ya I'm not celebrating what happened to him I just don't understand why it's the biggest deal ever when people die worse than that everyday. We have homeless kids in our streets and somehow that's less of a big deal to the general population.

 

[divinemistress36]

Sorry, and ya I'm not celebrating what happened to him I just don't understand why it's the biggest deal ever when people die worse than that everyday. We have homeless kids in our streets and somehow that's less of a big deal to the general population.

I agree, he wasnt inspirational or anything

 

[katara]

I agree, he wasnt inspirational or anything

I'm actually surprised I got any likes on this post I thought ppl would have an issue with it bc usually a few ppl on here are super sensitive and get mad

 

[calebzz1]

I recently saw a video from a political YouTuber about how he was scared to go to an event where they are debating ai because he was scared someone would try to shoot him like that guy did to Charlie Kirk.
I just don't really care anymore. I don't have anybody who cares about me or my situation. I never got to go to any parties or events. I don't get to celebrate Halloween or go out ever. I was never taught any skills, never learned to drive, never got to go to prom. Instead my mom wanted to move me to an isolated part of the country, in a boomer area where all I hear when I sit outside is traffic. I don't really understand why I'm supposed to care about other people when they make fun of my situation or ignore me. I remember in high school some guy mentioned wanting to shoot up the school or made a comment about bringing a gun to school . I wish I would've said to him "do it". Nobody at my ghetto high school cared about each other. The more disgusting you are the more popular you are. Most people were rude and stupid. I'm tired of pretending I'm fine with everything, I actually hate those people and I think mass shootings are stupid but why should I care about them? Nobody cares that there's homeless people everywhere, even homeless kids. Nobody cares that it's impossible to live alone by only having one job. So what do u so if ur in a bad situation and don't have family to lean on? What am I supposed to do? But that's right nobody cares about somebody like me. I wish someone would've shot up my school, because every day was miserable.

Most people in the world are terrible and I experienced this at school and in my life. I didn't have anyone show that they cared. I felt unloved most of my life and I did what my mom told me to do and it ruined my life. I didn't do anything when I turned 16, didn't get a car, didn't do anything at 18. Didn't do anything at 21. Nobody will do anything to help me and I go online and see people crying about being scared of getting shot because everyone knows after you die nothing happens and ur gone forever. Instead of making the world better people only care when they think about their own death. It's just stupid, this whole country is stupid and selfish. I could've been born in a better country where everyone is nice and caring and people don't have to worry about getting sick and not being able to afford going to a doctor.
I hate this damn country and the people who move here. I see online people younger than me able to travel to multiple countries and then some of them say they are depressed? It's complete madness. Living under these terrible circumstances has made me realize we really are all alone in this life. If you aren't born with a support network you'll never make it in life and that's just not fair. I'm surprised under our terrible government there isn't more violence because it's fucking disgusting what our culture allows. I talk to people online who live in better places like recently I was talking to a Dutch guy. It looks so pretty where he lives. All the streets are walkable and his neighbors invite him over to play guitar. I can't even complain to people like him because they instantly always ask "are you in USA" like they just know without me telling them, everyone always knows where I live. How come everyone I talk to has all these amazing resources I don't. Even in India there mental health system is cheaper, how is it worse and more expensive where I live? I talked to this guy who mentioned the mental health he gets, so I looked it up because I never heard of it before, and I just don't get why it's more affordable in a third world country than where I live. Why is it always better everywhere else with every person I talk to it's the same shit. This just doesn't feel real anymore.
But I'm supposed to care about some stupid influencers online who have great lives that are scared of getting shot. I just think that's ridiculous when that's not even in the top 5 worst things about this country. I used to care about making the world better, but living here for so long has made me not care. If I got stabbed like that Ukrainian refugee did, the same thing would happen, everyone would just stand around and do nothing because that's what this country produces. More soulless evil people who just care about themselves. I guess I am slowly turning into everyone else and I just hate it. I'll never be able to afford anything or do anything or travel to amazing places like normal people to. I can't even afford the same mental health services they have in third world countries bc everything is more expensive here. Why would I care about a shooting when I'll never be able afford anything or do anything? If there were more shootings than maybe I could walk down the street without there being cars everywhere. I wish where I live I could just walk around and it was pretty and everything was nice instead of there being traffic and cars everywhere. There's nothing to do. Am I supposed to be worried about being shot? If I survived I'd just sit in a stupid hospital bed and then probably have a 10k bill. I just wouldn't pay it, I shouldn't have to pay for anything. My life is completely wasted and I have to hear about all the places everyone goes to and weddings and parties. I have to worry about the fact I'm going to die alone. I have to worry about the fact I'll have another thanksgiving and Halloween alone. I'll be alone on new years too. I could've been born in a country where they actually take care of their citizens and don't just ignore people who are suffering and them it's great living under capitalism and we should be greatful. I could've had a better life, but nobody in this capitalist shithole cares about me so I don't care about them anymore

I read everything and totally get where you're coming from.

However, I care about the shootings and it's very sad.

I feel like I'm losing empathy the longer I go on with my impairment and the brutal reality of no one not being able to assist or help.

I know I'm getting disability benefits eventually but it's not like I'll be ecstatic considering my condition is not fun in the slightest.

I'm similar to you and can't relate to people who travel and explore the world considering how bad my sight is getting.

I wish everyone the best but I can get envious quick too if I really deeply analyze my situation.

For practical advice, consider getting on disability if you really can't work which can support your household and open a bit more doors.

You can do this without your mom's assistance if needed.

Alternately, strive for a GED and maybe community college afterwards.

I agree that the U.S. is not the best for temporarily and fully disabled people, if you can't work people already judge unfortunately.

I deeply care about you and wish I could do more.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Capitalism is the disease.
Socialism is the cure.

 

[katara]

Capitalism is the disease.
Socialism is the cure.

Socialism probably wouldn't even work bc people in America are too hateful

 

[IDontKnowEverything]

I witnessed a shooting recently.
My country doesn't even have that large of a gun problem...
I don't really know what to think.
I grabbed the two people with me and hid.
I felt anger. And sadness.

 

[katara]

I witnessed a shooting recently.
My country doesn't even have that large of a gun problem...
I don't really know what to think.
I grabbed the two people with me and hid.
I felt anger. And sadness.

I didn't hear about it, wherever it happened. A lot of ppl have guns where I live but I've never even held a gun before. But I definitely understand how they are scary to ppl bc they are loud.

 

[Roseate]

You see it as this country issue, but as someone who was not born in the states and have lived here majority of my life, it's a worldwide issue. It's not that no one cares, about homelessness, it's that the average person is barely making it by themselves. They're trying to survive like everyone else, so what can they do? The good ones will help when they can, but overall, they can't change it. And why can't you change some of your circumstances? I understand what it's like to not be able to live life, so now you're older and lost with no memories to lean on, but I'm old enough now that I can't expect anyone to come save me. No one is coming to save you, unfortunately the world doesn't work that way. And if you're hoping and waiting for that, you'll be disappointed and angry. Only you can save yourself. If you're unhappy, you can change some of it. But people are afraid of dying for the same reason you're upset and angry with life, they have so much more they've yet to experience and live, there's so much more memories they haven't experienced yet, so many more moments they haven't gotten to see, so much happiness they haven't lived, and they want to see it all. They want when they die to close their eyes and know they came here and lived their best life. I think it's the same thing you want. People don't have to care for you to care. You shouldn't need something in return to care, because honestly plenty of people are like that and those are the exact traits you hate in them, but you're doing that same thing in a way. They don't care so you won't care, but you still want them to care but you want them to save you, and what? If they did, what would that change? What would be different? How would you react? Would that somehow make you care about people dying in vain? Would mass shootings be important to you then? People are dying in vain, and you don't know who cared about them, some of those people could've been living just like you and never got the chance to turn it around but you wouldn't know that.. and you're still deeming it as something not to care about while judging those who don't care about homelessness as if homelessness is more important than mass shootings and people dying for no good reason other than someone else incapability to feel their pain without harming others

 

[katara]

You see it as this country issue, but as someone who was not born in the states and have lived here majority of my life, it's a worldwide issue. It's not that no one cares, about homelessness, it's that the average person is barely making it by themselves. They're trying to survive like everyone else, so what can they do? The good ones will help when they can, but overall, they can't change it. And why can't you change some of your circumstances? I understand what it's like to not be able to live life, so now you're older and lost with no memories to lean on, but I'm old enough now that I can't expect anyone to come save me. No one is coming to save you, unfortunately the world doesn't work that way. And if you're hoping and waiting for that, you'll be disappointed and angry. Only you can save yourself. If you're unhappy, you can change some of it. But people are afraid of dying for the same reason you're upset and angry with life, they have so much more they've yet to experience and live, there's so much more memories they haven't experienced yet, so many more moments they haven't gotten to see, so much happiness they haven't lived, and they want to see it all. They want when they die to close their eyes and know they came here and lived their best life. I think it's the same thing you want. People don't have to care for you to care. You shouldn't need something in return to care, because honestly plenty of people are like that and those are the exact traits you hate in them, but you're doing that same thing in a way. They don't care so you won't care, but you still want them to care but you want them to save you, and what? If they did, what would that change? What would be different? How would you react? Would that somehow make you care about people dying in vain? Would mass shootings be important to you then? People are dying in vain, and you don't know who cared about them, some of those people could've been living just like you and never got the chance to turn it around but you wouldn't know that.. and you're still deeming it as something not to care about while judging those who don't care about homelessness as if homelessness is more important than mass shootings and people dying for no good reason other than someone else incapability to feel their pain without harming others

I used to think it was sad but clearly shootings are just American culture at this point and that's why I hate it here. I used to wish there would be a shooting at my school so I wouldn't have to go. I see ppl on here always saying they live in good countries but are suicidal and I just don't believe them bc how can u be suicidal if u have a good life and ppl who care about u? I know nobody is coming to save me bc apparently I'm worse than everyone else bc I'm too stupid to function

 

[Roseate]

I used to think it was sad but clearly shootings are just American culture at this point and that's why I hate it here. I used to wish there would be a shooting at my school so I wouldn't have to go. I see ppl on here always saying they live in good countries but are suicidal and I just don't believe them bc how can u be suicidal if u have a good life and ppl who care about u? I know nobody is coming to save me bc apparently I'm worse than everyone else bc I'm too stupid to function

it's a privilege for you to say that because you actually have no idea. If you can't even handle the things you've talked about, do you seriously think those issues wouldn't be multiplied in another country? Like genuinely, it's harder to make a living in some countries. Even if the rents seem low, the pay is even lower. And yeah they don't have mass shootings but they have deaths related to violence, maybe it's not with guns but it's still a fear. I remember some days where they'd be like going crazy in the streets, and we had to get out of school early so we wouldn't get hurt. They were burning people, burning houses, and everyone was scared and running to pick up their child and sometimes they would get hurt in the streets… it's definitely not an American thing when we're talking about violence in general. It's a fear everywhere. At least here, we can get careers and somehow manage a bit, you can get a roommate and make ends meet even if you're not happy. Not to mention some countries don't acknowledge mental illness or the mentally ill, they don't even believe that it's real and there is no help at all.

 

[katara]

it's a privilege for you to say that because you actually have no idea. If you can't even handle the things you've talked about, do you seriously think those issues wouldn't be multiplied in another country? Like genuinely, it's harder to make a living in some countries. Even if the rents seem low, the pay is even lower. And yeah they don't have mass shootings but they have deaths related to violence, maybe it's not with guns but it's still a fear. I remember some days where they'd be like going crazy in the streets, and we had to get out of school early so we wouldn't get hurt. They were burning people, burning houses, and everyone was scared and running to pick up their child and sometimes they would get hurt in the streets… it's definitely not an American thing when we're talking about violence in general. It's a fear everywhere. At least here, we can get careers and somehow manage a bit, you can get a roommate and make ends meet even if you're not happy. Not to mention some countries don't acknowledge mental illness or the mentally ill, they don't even believe that it's real and there is no help at all.

I have no idea what country u are in so idk what you are talking about. I didn't say I want to live wherever it is u are where apparently people are getting burned in the streets. You must have misunderstood my post. Where did I say I want to live in Gotham lol.

 

[Roseate]

I have no idea what country u are in so idk what you are talking about. I didn't say I want to live wherever it is u are where apparently people are getting burned in the streets. You must have misunderstood my post. Where did I say I want to live in Gotham lol.

You said America is so bad I currently live in America but if you think it's not wild out there you're living in a bubble honestly you think what? If you truly think America is the worst then you might need to experience other countries and not just exploit other poverty country the way most Americans do. They'll go somewhere and raise the price for the locals and boast about it without actually living the same way as the locals

 

[katara]

You said America is so bad I currently live in America but if you think it's not wild out there you're living in a bubble honestly you think what? If you truly think America is the worst then you might need to experience other countries and not just exploit other poverty country the way most Americans do. They'll go somewhere and raise the price for the locals and boast about it without actually living the same way as the locals

You said ppl were burning houses and people where you live in USA, then you are saying America isn't that bad. Do you understand how confusing that is? Lol if anything you saying that just proves my point. And yes fyi I wanted to leave USA before turning 16, if I had the opportunity I would've done that. You keep coming onto this thread to argue without realizing u actually helped prove my point.

 

[Roseate]

You said ppl were burning houses and people where you live in USA, then you are saying America isn't that bad. Do you understand how confusing that is? Lol if anything you saying that just proves my point. And yes fyi I wanted to leave USA before turning 16, if I had the opportunity I would've done that. You keep coming onto this thread to argue without realizing u actually helped prove my point.

Keyword there was currently. I wasn't born in the states but I currently live here but from someone who was born in another country, I was giving perspective. I actually didn't prove your point but you lack reading comprehension and nothing I said was arguing. I was giving a different perspective but your privilege might not let you see that cuz how else are you the victim if it's not proven. Every country has their own hard struggles so to act like the struggle of this country is harder than other countries is actually a privilege way of thinking. Go to another country, work the same job as the locals, earn the same amount as the locals, shop where the locals shop, live the same life as the locals and try to tell me if it's easier. Don't find a job working for an American company, don't earn american dollars in those countries, because a lot of the times, Americans just move elsewhere and continue working for American business and earning American money and exploiting and hurting the environment for the locals who actually have to stay there at the end of the day.

 

[katara]

Keyword there was currently. I wasn't born in the states but I currently live here but from someone who was born in another country, I was giving perspective. I actually didn't prove your point but you lack reading comprehension and nothing I said was arguing. I was giving a different perspective but your privilege might not let you see that cuz how else are you the victim if it's not proven. Every country has their own hard struggles so to act like the struggle of this country is harder than other countries is actually a privilege way of thinking. Go to another country, work the same job as the locals, earn the same amount as the locals, shop where the locals shop, live the same life as the locals and try to tell me if it's easier. Don't find a job working for an American company, don't earn american dollars in those countries, because a lot of the times, Americans just move elsewhere and continue working for American business and earning American money and exploiting and hurting the environment for the locals who actually have to stay there at the end of the day.

You are on here with no pfp no name or identification, and hurt bc i said i wish I wasn't born in America. It's my opinion, some people like being born here, I didn't. Grow up. There's Americans moving all over the place bc of how unaffordable and unsafe things are. Fuck off, my dad died early bc of the medical system here. I don't need you being an asshole to me. If you like America I don't care. I wish I was born in a better country where there's no homeless and healthcare doesn't cost an arm and a leg. If that statement makes u mad u have some issues.

 

[Roseate]

You are on here with no pfp no name or identification, and hurt bc i said i wish I wasn't born in America. It's my opinion, some people like being born here, I didn't. Grow up. There's Americans moving all over the place bc of how unaffordable and unsafe things are. Fuck off, my dad died early bc of the medical system here. I don't need you being an asshole to me. If you like America I don't care. I wish I was born in a better country where there's no homeless and healthcare doesn't cost an arm and a leg. If that statement makes u mad u have some issues.

Okay first of all, this is a website about ctb so to act like I should show my Face is pure insanity. Secondly, you're not victim here and if you are, then you're a victim of lacking reading comprehension which I guess fits the American stereotype. Third, I never said America was the best or greatest. I just said it sounds tone deaf and privileged to say that as if there aren't actual countries struggling and all of those people you mentioned just go to other places and harm those locals, bringing that same stereotypical American mindset over there and harming them instead of idk dealing with the government here but I guess that also fits the American stereotypes too. What country do you know that has no homelessness? It seems like you're living in a world that just doesn't exist on this earth because homelessness is everywhere, murder is everywhere, but you'll believe what you want and find a way to make yourself the victim. If you think this is somehow "bullying" you, I'm just giving you a perspective that's different to yours, as I'm sure others outside of the US can also give you too. Also, everything I said, I said from a neutral perspective. No emotions whatsoever unless you're projecting your own. If anything you seem mad and offended I'm not just agreeing with your fairytale fantasy about this world but I'm actually living on earth. It's a hard concept for you to get because you're just as selfish honestly and your idea of a better is someone else doing it for you while you actively enjoy it. Thats why you can't fathom other countries struggles when every country struggles. I can say the same about other countries. They all have their own struggles, and homelessness is everywhere across the world but let's be serious, it's not like you actually care about the homelessness, you're just using it to try and prove a point. That's what everyone does. It's insulting, like when people use any country in Africa to prove it could be harder.