Venting I just wanted a normal life

[Die.A.Ria]

I hate how i was born this way and i hate how everyone could have helped me but ignored me it really hurts
My parents could have waited a month instead of moving countries for my second surgery because the first one didnt go well and i wouldve never had to deal with this pain and what i had to deal with
I hate everyone in my life because they knew i was suffering but chose to not care or bully me for it

 

[Estrella87]

Feel pain for you What was this surgery about if you don't mind me asking?

 

[dragonofenvy]

Some of the worst wounds are caused not by what has happened, but what didn't have to happen. I am sorry you have to carry this pain. There is a unique kind of grief in realizing your suffering wasn't inevitable, but instead was something other people could have eased by didn't. I don't think everyone understands how deeply that betrayal cuts into you. I don't carry the same cuts as you, but my scars are similar enough for me to know how painful it is. You deserved compassion, not to be left carrying this burden by yourself.

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Feel pain for you What was this surgery about if you don't mind me asking?

This explains Everything i had my first surgery at 4 years old and finally in july i was supposed to have the second surgery that couldve been all those years ago but it got cancelled 2 days before my heart literally dropped and i cried everyday since then and i have to see what my surgeon says in September i might not have it or i might

What she tells me in September will determine whether i will CTB this year or not and i hate this uncertainty it really hurts i have to do this i always dreamed of a normal life