
The_Hunter
What respect is there in death?
- Nov 30, 2024
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Thank you for making this post. I feel seen in the feelings you're sharing here.
I originally joined this site during an up-phase of suicidal cyclings. (Luckily I'm so much better now.) And I originally joined to talk to people and try to help people to find senses of healing outside of merely death. I completely see where you're coming from on feeling like it's pointless. But, my friend, I'm sure you really did make a lot of people feel positive emotions, and that matters, friend :) It's seriously a good thing. Whether they're here or not, you made them feel something good. And that is NOT to be understated ;)
I think you deserve a place to belong. Never stop looking, deadbidaylight, never stop looking. You will find a place one day. The world needs caring people like you. Even if the world overlooks these people, it is indebted to them. Please take care of yourself. Put your own health first. Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warm. Put your own mask on before others. The world is but the poorer if it would be without your genuine, vitalistic, life, and your honest nature of presence.
Some people here really care about you and are telling you to stay. But ultimately, that's your own choice, that you have the right to decide. Your health and life come first, before everything. Even if they might be understandably a little sad by not being with you. they will still remember all the love you gave them, and all their lives are the better for it. I am sure they truly want the best for you and want you to feel alright, and even happy, if I may dare say.
I'm considering leaving this site too. From one wanderer to another. Bon voyage. May the winds take us to the most beautiful of vistas, and the warmest of airs.
Good places and good people await you, there are good people all over the world even if they are hard to find; may they find you and love you, as you deserve to be. May they be touched by your love and you by theirs. Please take care of yourself. We are glad to have met you for whatever time we were able to; we may be a little sad that we can't talk with you anymore but we are more happy with whatever will benefit your life. Best of wishes, friend! We are rooting for you :)
If you're curious... please know that I would be most willing to engage deeply with any ideas you might wish to share. Feel free to write to me in PM's if you're up for sharing some deep thoughts on things. I'm all for concluding on somewhat ambiguous notes ;) Just putting it out there! I know your energy is limited but I would be fascinated to hear what you would have to say. I completely feel you on the groupthink part, it's exhausting! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it's very refreshing.
but we are able to find at least some comfort in our own little worlds, and when the world is a little too much; we can withdraw, in our own soft darkrooms--and rest there, and breathe a little. allow yourself that relief. breathe when you need to. and when you feel ready and want more you're always free to walk out into the world again. but please--please please please--allow yourself relief and space when you need it. that's all friend <3
I originally joined this site during an up-phase of suicidal cyclings. (Luckily I'm so much better now.) And I originally joined to talk to people and try to help people to find senses of healing outside of merely death. I completely see where you're coming from on feeling like it's pointless. But, my friend, I'm sure you really did make a lot of people feel positive emotions, and that matters, friend :) It's seriously a good thing. Whether they're here or not, you made them feel something good. And that is NOT to be understated ;)
I think you deserve a place to belong. Never stop looking, deadbidaylight, never stop looking. You will find a place one day. The world needs caring people like you. Even if the world overlooks these people, it is indebted to them. Please take care of yourself. Put your own health first. Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warm. Put your own mask on before others. The world is but the poorer if it would be without your genuine, vitalistic, life, and your honest nature of presence.
Some people here really care about you and are telling you to stay. But ultimately, that's your own choice, that you have the right to decide. Your health and life come first, before everything. Even if they might be understandably a little sad by not being with you. they will still remember all the love you gave them, and all their lives are the better for it. I am sure they truly want the best for you and want you to feel alright, and even happy, if I may dare say.
I'm considering leaving this site too. From one wanderer to another. Bon voyage. May the winds take us to the most beautiful of vistas, and the warmest of airs.
Good places and good people await you, there are good people all over the world even if they are hard to find; may they find you and love you, as you deserve to be. May they be touched by your love and you by theirs. Please take care of yourself. We are glad to have met you for whatever time we were able to; we may be a little sad that we can't talk with you anymore but we are more happy with whatever will benefit your life. Best of wishes, friend! We are rooting for you :)
Thank you for your words, Pluto. It's an honor to be able to hear your writings.Same here. Your point is very valid. At one time, I was an outspoken advocate of making the website respectful for all demographics. I was never censored, but I quickly realised the futility of going against the groupthink. I never found another place to belong and my energy levels and mental focus are only a fraction of what they once were, so I avoid conflict now and keep my contributions very light.
I was on the cusp of offering a lengthy reply to you in that other thread, though you understandably chose not to engage further by that time.
As someone who is 'too old to know everything', for a post to do justice to such a serious topic, it would need to cover a few different points of view with nuance and reference to life experience, yet conclude on a somewhat ambiguous note. And the result will be ignored completely. In social media, what rises to the top is tribalism and simplistic posturing.
Only the tiniest number of people here intentionally harm others, but on the whole, I have seen many thoughtful, empathic people leave because of the somewhat juvenile culture.
If you're curious... please know that I would be most willing to engage deeply with any ideas you might wish to share. Feel free to write to me in PM's if you're up for sharing some deep thoughts on things. I'm all for concluding on somewhat ambiguous notes ;) Just putting it out there! I know your energy is limited but I would be fascinated to hear what you would have to say. I completely feel you on the groupthink part, it's exhausting! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it's very refreshing.
when we feel isolated--we feel there is nowhere to go.My entire life I've always felt like I never belonged anywhere. I thought I finally found that in this community. For the first time in my life I felt like I could relate, that my feelings were valid and that I wasn't alone. But after the last few days, my spirit is broken. I don't belong here either. I don't belong anywhere.
but we are able to find at least some comfort in our own little worlds, and when the world is a little too much; we can withdraw, in our own soft darkrooms--and rest there, and breathe a little. allow yourself that relief. breathe when you need to. and when you feel ready and want more you're always free to walk out into the world again. but please--please please please--allow yourself relief and space when you need it. that's all friend <3
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