Venting I dislike good weather

[lastappleonearth]

I dread when it's sunny and nice outside. I get that this sounds bitter and pathetic in a way, but it only reminds me of how alone I am and how I have no one to do anything with, when it's nice outside. Idk, it just makes me sad, makes me think of the people I lost and I wonder what they're up to, when it's nice outside.
Anyway, here's a pic of foggy weather

 

[Dissolving Figment]

I got the same feeling when I biked past the busy park and saw all the happy families and the kids playing and people talking...

Must be nice

Nice photo, by the way

 

[itsgone2]

Same. Though I miss when I enjoyed it. There was a time.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I got the same feeling when I biked past the busy park and saw all the happy families and the kids playing and people talking...

Must be nice

Nice photo, by the way

Thank you. Yeah it hurts seeing that, I mean I'm happy for these people, but I just wish I could experience sth similar

Same. Though I miss when I enjoyed it. There was a time.

That's why I like looking at old photos, it's painful in a way, but also kind of nice

 

[imnotcreative]

that picture is probably my favorite type of weather

and yeah, i feel the same way for similar reasons

 

[lastappleonearth]

that picture is probably my favorite type of weather

and yeah, i feel the same way for similar reasons

Yeah mine too, I like fog and autumn is my fav season by far

 

[notthatclever]

You got that Lana Del Rey summertime sadness.. same.. Summer used to make me happy as a kid because break from school and it meant we got to swim all day every with our friends.. but it doesn't have the same happy connotation as an adult.. I like nice sung weather I just hate hot weather.. but I'm definitely a curl up with a book when it rains person.. or a good movie.. I prefer rainy gloomy weather.. it weird because everybody gets sad in that weather but I love it..

As long as I take vitamin D I'm good to go..

Curtains D deficiency can often have the same characteristics as depression.. and can cause depression.. I had a real bad deficiency in Alaska which is common.. I could barely move off the couch.. the Doctor put me on 50k IU of vitamin D it was that bad..
I was bottomed out.. but miserable hot sticky weather is as bad as miserable cold ice and snow and mud weather..

But I don't lack vitamin D where I'm at now.. it's just plain old depression and stupid ex boyfriend..

The only reason I tolerated any of it this long was my cats and good for a decent job.. only the cats panned out.. I was hoping he might shape up some but he only got worse.. we're going on a year and he still can't figure out a way to manage a date night at the movies..

Weed budget for him took precedence over spending real time with me.. he showed me time and again what's actually important to him..
And at some point.. if somebody keeps that pattern going even when you're being clear saying that you need a b and c.. believe them that's what they really want in life no matter what they say..

And weed just seems to be more important to him.. weed and hanging out with his friends on his free time..

Which is fine but he keeps and has been claiming it isn't and he strung me along..

And for the past two months after I said I'd give it one more solid last effort.. spent the first 6 weeks pot of the last 8 on the constant job hunt.. and watched him.. and every single week.. he spent 50 bucks a week on weed and didn't sacrifice even one single week to spend real time with me and take me out on a date or anything..

He's a fuck boy.. he just is.. and he's trying to delude himself he isn't because nobody else thinks he isn't one.. he just isn't a real man..

And that's fine.. but I mean why did he waste all this time.. all he did was waste my time and his own time.. time and money.. just wasted.. effort wasted..

I digress.. sorry I just broke up with him this morning and I'm upset about how he did me all the way to the end.. he can't even just bow out gracefully..

He has to be a vile prick to the end..

He's acting all butthurt like everybody around him doesn't baby his ass to shit..

He lies about everything.. and to top it off I live in sunny humid miserable hot "paradise".. paradise being an operative word..

You watch., he'll cool off in a couple days.. he will try to weasel his way for me to stay.. I bet you anything..

I'll give everybody good odds.

He will cry and be upset no matter how pissed he is.. but it's not because he loves me.. it's because he's terrified of being alone..

Anyways.. cool foggy rainy days are the best.. drinking coffee and reading or chillin out.. hanging with my kitties.. I hate this hot humid miserable weather.. the sun just seems so intense.. I grew up four seasons.

I prefer four seasons but where I grew up the seasons were extreme.. so I'm moving and there are 4 seasons but not quite as extreme.. so I'm looking forward to that.. the weather is much milder.. it's on the cooler side but it's not brutal bitter cold..

Hoping to get straight back to work like almost immediately and get a house fast that will accept my cats and then snuggle my black kitties on rainy days..

I just never see more being stable or normal with him..
There will always be some sense of instability.. and I don't mind instability for a minute.. I get things happen.. but it's every other day or week with him..

So I'm going back off on my own.. because it's just instability for a month or two until I'm back up on my feet and then whatever..

I'm super excited about the weather where I'm going though.. and it's very nature heavy and pretty.. I can't wait to see it..

I guess I'm just tired of feeling like I've been hooodwinked just for waking up in the morning.. and that's how he and this entire place makes me feel..

Wishing you some lovely cool foggy weather soon!

 

[itsgone2]

I dread when it's sunny and nice outside. I get that this sounds bitter and pathetic in a way, but it only reminds me of how alone I am and how I have no one to do anything with, when it's nice outside. Idk, it just makes me sad, makes me think of the people I lost and I wonder what they're up to, when it's nice outside.
Anyway, here's a pic of foggy weather


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May I ask where this is? An exact location not needed.
A really nice photo. Simple area but well planned. The tree choices. The walkway. Simple lighting. The buildings with their different colors and windows. I see no litter. The fog is wonderful.
All those things planned by people. All those lives.
The only odd thing to keep are the cars. Modernity. Same. Grey or white or black. All things modern have no soul.

 

[lastappleonearth]

You got that Lana Del Rey summertime sadness.. same.. Summer used to make me happy as a kid because break from school and it meant we got to swim all day every with our friends.. but it doesn't have the same happy connotation as an adult.. I like nice sung weather I just hate hot weather.. but I'm definitely a curl up with a book when it rains person.. or a good movie.. I prefer rainy gloomy weather.. it weird because everybody gets sad in that weather but I love it..

As long as I take vitamin D I'm good to go..

Curtains D deficiency can often have the same characteristics as depression.. and can cause depression.. I had a real bad deficiency in Alaska which is common.. I could barely move off the couch.. the Doctor put me on 50k IU of vitamin D it was that bad..
I was bottomed out.. but miserable hot sticky weather is as bad as miserable cold ice and snow and mud weather..

But I don't lack vitamin D where I'm at now.. it's just plain old depression and stupid ex boyfriend..

The only reason I tolerated any of it this long was my cats and good for a decent job.. only the cats panned out.. I was hoping he might shape up some but he only got worse.. we're going on a year and he still can't figure out a way to manage a date night at the movies..

Weed budget for him took precedence over spending real time with me.. he showed me time and again what's actually important to him..
And at some point.. if somebody keeps that pattern going even when you're being clear saying that you need a b and c.. believe them that's what they really want in life no matter what they say..

And weed just seems to be more important to him.. weed and hanging out with his friends on his free time..

Which is fine but he keeps and has been claiming it isn't and he strung me along..

And for the past two months after I said I'd give it one more solid last effort.. spent the first 6 weeks pot of the last 8 on the constant job hunt.. and watched him.. and every single week.. he spent 50 bucks a week on weed and didn't sacrifice even one single week to spend real time with me and take me out on a date or anything..

He's a fuck boy.. he just is.. and he's trying to delude himself he isn't because nobody else thinks he isn't one.. he just isn't a real man..

And that's fine.. but I mean why did he waste all this time.. all he did was waste my time and his own time.. time and money.. just wasted.. effort wasted..

I digress.. sorry I just broke up with him this morning and I'm upset about how he did me all the way to the end.. he can't even just bow out gracefully..

He has to be a vile prick to the end..

He's acting all butthurt like everybody around him doesn't baby his ass to shit..

He lies about everything.. and to top it off I live in sunny humid miserable hot "paradise".. paradise being an operative word..

You watch., he'll cool off in a couple days.. he will try to weasel his way for me to stay.. I bet you anything..

I'll give everybody good odds.

He will cry and be upset no matter how pissed he is.. but it's not because he loves me.. it's because he's terrified of being alone..

Anyways.. cool foggy rainy days are the best.. drinking coffee and reading or chillin out.. hanging with my kitties.. I hate this hot humid miserable weather.. the sun just seems so intense.. I grew up four seasons.

I prefer four seasons but where I grew up the seasons were extreme.. so I'm moving and there are 4 seasons but not quite as extreme.. so I'm looking forward to that.. the weather is much milder.. it's on the cooler side but it's not brutal bitter cold..

Hoping to get straight back to work like almost immediately and get a house fast that will accept my cats and then snuggle my black kitties on rainy days..

I just never see more being stable or normal with him..
There will always be some sense of instability.. and I don't mind instability for a minute.. I get things happen.. but it's every other day or week with him..

So I'm going back off on my own.. because it's just instability for a month or two until I'm back up on my feet and then whatever..

I'm super excited about the weather where I'm going though.. and it's very nature heavy and pretty.. I can't wait to see it..

I guess I'm just tired of feeling like I've been hooodwinked just for waking up in the morning.. and that's how he and this entire place makes me feel..

Wishing you some lovely cool foggy weather soon!

Thank you.
Im sorry about how your boyfriend treated you. Idk, prioritising weed over quality time with your partner is a very shitty thing to do. I guess if one really cares, they would at least try to change for the better. I'm glad you are moving to a more comfortable place though. I also hate hot weather and this summer has been especially awful, I even had to buy myself one of those mobile AC units

May I ask where this is? An exact location not needed.
A really nice photo. Simple area but well planned. The tree choices. The walkway. Simple lighting. The buildings with their different colors and windows. I see no litter. The fog is wonderful.
All those things planned by people. All those lives.
The only odd thing to keep are the cars. Modernity. Same. Grey or white or black. All things modern have no soul.

It's in central Austria. I agree, most modern things are devoid of soul. Like even the street lamps, bins etc are all ugly as shit now, but this hasn't always been this way. We used to make more beautiful things, street lamps for example have been mass produced for a while now and if we wanted we could make them prettier. Idk, everything is so utilitarian now

 

[yotaka]

I hate that "good" weather = sunny/clear/hot. I love clouds and rain and fog and snow and cooler temperatures. Hot, bright days feel so uncomfortable and oppressive for me. I would love to live someplace where it's cool and rainy most often. I guess this is just one more among a mountain of ways I'm different from the norm, though...

 

[lastappleonearth]

I hate that "good" weather = sunny/clear/hot. I love clouds and rain and fog and snow and cooler temperatures. Hot, bright days feel so uncomfortable and oppressive for me. I would love to live someplace where it's cool and rainy most often. I guess this is just one more among a mountain of ways I'm different from the norm, though...

I feel you, it's always so bizarre to me when the radio hosts joyfully announce that it's gonna be almost 40 degree weather today. Like what am I supposed to look forward to that, I don't get these people

 

[limenlux]

I dread when it's sunny and nice outside. I get that this sounds bitter and pathetic in a way, but it only reminds me of how alone I am and how I have no one to do anything with, when it's nice outside. Idk, it just makes me sad, makes me think of the people I lost and I wonder what they're up to, when it's nice outside.
Anyway, here's a pic of foggy weather


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I absolutely agree with this sentiment. A foggy, rainy autumn is something to be cherished. Given the seasonal changes occurring during fall, it feels like both literally and figuratively walking along the somber, silent bridge to death. If there's an afterlife, I hope it's always like that.

 

[Pluto]

 

[FF777]

for some thing like weather "good" is very subjective, almost like how every one has their own type of music they like, every one has their own affinity with certain types of weather..

i really feel the frisson hard when it's autumn and it's windy and slightly chilly (but not too cold) and dusk is setting in..

 

[left0vers]

Me too. Sunny weather makes everything even uglier than it already is. It's kitschy, like garish plastic trash.

Rain is soothing for all senses.

I hate that "good" weather = sunny/clear/hot. I love clouds and rain and fog and snow and cooler temperatures. Hot, bright days feel so uncomfortable and oppressive for me. I would love to live someplace where it's cool and rainy most often. I guess this is just one more among a mountain of ways I'm different from the norm, though...

Hard agree on every point.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Me too. Sunny weather makes everything even uglier than it already is. It's kitschy, like garish plastic trash.

Rain is soothing for all senses.



Hard agree on every point.

True, the people around me don't get that, everyone seems to love sunny weather. I mean that's fine too ofc, but just don't expect me to like it lol