Venting I didn't know death of a father would be like that

[sleeplessboyinbed]

My father died recently and it feels so weird. We barely interacted and i don't remember him at all. He was a bad person and hated me and my mom, so i guess im not really upset that he died. The most difficult thing was my moms reaction. Idk why but i felt disgust when she cried. Thankfully she's over it now and doesn't cry. I don't like managing her emotions. I just hate how everything feels different now. But im good at dissociation so i don't think its affecting me

 

[itsgone2]

Was it unexpected? You may have not had a relationship but I'm sure it's affecting you.
I was 14 when my father died. We weren't close but not hate like you mentioned. Still, in hindsight I see how completely it affected the course of my life. Tragically. I'm sure it's something you need to confront on some level.