Venting I deserve it all

[Endstati0n]

Life is pretty random, but you mostly get what you deserve. Every person in my life abadoned me and the only people i'm left to interact with are work collegues who all signal me with their body language that they don't fuck with me. There's not a single person on this earth that accepts, or likes me. I used to respond with hate towards this unacceptance i got, but now i understand that i deserve it.

My upbringing was traumatic and changed me from a happy kid with alot of friends to a socialy anxious, weird, outsider. It wasn't my fault that i was born into a fucked up home, but i have to accept that the person it made me is unloveable and wil be hated by society.

I'm just happy that it's all over soon and i will be free from it all.

 

[depressedkidiam]

i'm SO sorry, i feel the same sometimes, and although i haven't been in your situation, i know what it feels like to think you're a monster that will never be accepted by society. and at some point you just willingly recognize that and realize you have to go, because you're not meant to be here.