Venting I decided to cut almost everyone off

[angelhopes]

I'm like at the point where I just decided to be annoying to everyone so they will distance themselves with me. I genuinely don't want to bring anyone else in this mess. My brain would think that they're probably talking back behind me telling their other friends that I'm just annoying and I'm doing this just for attention. I feel so stuck and I want everyone else to move forward even if it means moving forward without me so I deactivated everything where they will try to be in contact with me and told everyone that I'm gonna need some space not knowing if I'll ever come back.

I feel like this would soften up the blow for them since they can't understand me and it's okay. I genuinely love and care for them and it hurts me knowing that they're being affected in this mess as well.

 

[Lost Magic]

I'm like at the point where I just decided to be annoying to everyone so they will distance themselves with me. I genuinely don't want to bring anyone else in this mess. My brain would think that they're probably talking back behind me telling their other friends that I'm just annoying and I'm doing this just for attention. I feel so stuck and I want everyone else to move forward even if it means moving forward without me so I deactivated everything where they will try to be in contact with me and told everyone that I'm gonna need some space not knowing if I'll ever come back.

I feel like this would soften up the blow for them since they can't understand me and it's okay. I genuinely love and care for them and it hurts me knowing that they're being affected in this mess as well.

I had to block everybody out of my life that added no value to it. It's tough, but I understand the reasoning.

 

[AuraByte]

I understand, OP. I admittedly have been gradually doing the same these past few years.