RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I love her, so much. But she can't handle me talking about ctb. I'm going to go out peacefully, and alone. A few hours after I'm gone a trusted friend will get the text about where my body is.
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LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
I wish you find peace whatever you decide to do.
What method do you plan to use, if it's not indiscreet to ask?
What method do you plan to use, if it's not indiscreet to ask?
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
PH. I've considered SN or N but because of specific stomach issues those may not be effective. I've read the megathread and my tests left me unconscious so I should be good to go.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I will! I'll probably go into more detail sunday. For now I'm just spending today relaxing. Friday I pick up my final paycheck (I quit). Saturday I'm spending with my girlfriend. Sunday... will be it. Hopefully.
Dliena
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- Dec 22, 2023
- 1,889
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
Hope you'll have the best time of your life on Saturday. I often think about the last times I'm gonna spend with my partner. Such a shame I can't die in their arms.
Will you be alone on Sunday?
bookgirl
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- Mar 31, 2024
- 318
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I always do. I love her dearly. I plan to be alone. I don't trust anyone to let me go through with it. I've almost always been alone, so I'm not scared of dying alone.
I've suffered enough in this life. I hope whatever comes next is tranquil..
I wish you bestest of luck OP and eternal peace never to suffer again.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
So do I. It's gonna be really hard to leave them alone, traumatized and bereaved. It makes me so sad...
Good thing if you're alone. Best of luck!
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I know what she's going to go through, and I hate that. But I can't stand the thought of living any longer. I can't keep going just for one person.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
Yeah, I totally agree, I'm on the same page. I told them. I have to think about myself.
justcallmeJ
<3
- Nov 9, 2023
- 347
Its never easy for the loved ones we leave behind :(
I wish you the best with your plan and hope you find peace <3
I wish you the best with your plan and hope you find peace <3
FuneralCry
She wished that she never existed...
- Sep 24, 2020
- 34,347
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 569
Not necessarily. Sometimes the people who love you deeply don't need you to make efforts. They just love you unconditionnally.
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
every relationship is different. my partner helped me recover from my previous attempts.
thelazyegg
Member
- Mar 25, 2024
- 43
I'm also planning to CTB on Sunday. I wish you the best in your plans and wish you relief and peace from the suffering you are experiencing 
My boyfriend took his life in September last year and didn't leave a personal note or goodbye, so if you haven't done that yet, please do. Your partner will appreciate it. I'm haunted everyday by the fact the last thing he told me was that "everything is good" and that he would call me when he was free. He wrote journal entries and told me he wanted to show me the journal entry he wrote when he met me. I'll never see them ever since he took his life before showing me. So if there are any tokens of love to leave, please do. Thank you so much for reading.
My boyfriend took his life in September last year and didn't leave a personal note or goodbye, so if you haven't done that yet, please do. Your partner will appreciate it. I'm haunted everyday by the fact the last thing he told me was that "everything is good" and that he would call me when he was free. He wrote journal entries and told me he wanted to show me the journal entry he wrote when he met me. I'll never see them ever since he took his life before showing me. So if there are any tokens of love to leave, please do. Thank you so much for reading.
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
well shit, nevermind. she's busy this weekend. I want to tell her that I need to spend time with her but if she asks why I don't know what I'm going to say...
thelazyegg
Member
- Mar 25, 2024
- 43
If you can't explain to her what's going onβCan you say you are going on a trip and want to see her before you go? Is that a possible excuse that could fly in this situation?
Just say you miss her and you wanted to spend some time just the two of you. I think thats normal in a loving relationship.
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
she knows I don't travel that much.
I am seeing her, but just part of sunday instead of all day saturday. I really just wanted to cuddle her before I go out.
I'm glad to hear that you'll get to see her even just for a bit. I hope it's a perfect Sunday for you.
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I fucking failed. again.
that's all I fucking do. fail. I can't even fucking die properly. I test my spot thoroughly. I can fucking hold onto my anchor point and dangle. it supports my weight. but when I go to actually hang myself? it fucking breaks. I get risen from blissful unconsciousness by faceplanting my fucking...
sanctioned-suicide.net
RoseGarden
Alone & Unloved
- Apr 10, 2024
- 34
I mean this with as much love and care as I can muster
please gender my girlfriend correctly
dead-yaga
muddy moon
- Oct 24, 2020
- 48
as someone who's partner left them behind (we even had a suicide pact) let me tell if she really loves you then your partner will never get over it. she'll blame herself for not being able to do more for you and hate herself for making you not trust her enough to warn her in advance. she'll never feel anything towards anyone again cause no one else is you, and she will see you everywhere. not a day goes by where my partner doesn't cross my mind, and how i am at fault for their death. but of course everyone will say that's wrong and so she will spend the rest of her life blaming herself for involuntary manslaughter. and with blame comes consequences and with consequences comes punishment. but the only one who will punish her is herself. i think if you're in a relationship with someone, you should give them the opportunity to go with you, or at least be with you at the last moments. if you really love her you shouldn't leave her with unanswered questions. cause i can tell you, from someone in the opposite of this situation, she will follow you eventually. it may be immediately, it may not. it might be being subconsciously self-destructive, or it may be a thought out plan. but she will follow you. just with a lot more pain sadness anger and confusion. and loneliness. im going to follow my partner. if someone says they'll be with you forever, through thick and thin, they should mean it. and i meant it.
i guess it comes down to how much does your girlfriend depend on you? my partner was my life and my world, since they died i have nothing to live for, any future i had imagined is impossible now. my life has fallen to bits without them and i plan to catch that bus in the coming year (got a kit) i just need to prepare some stuff. but i would've done anything to die in their arms with them.
i just want you to know what she will probably be going through. i would've given anything in the world even to just know about it.
i guess it comes down to how much does your girlfriend depend on you? my partner was my life and my world, since they died i have nothing to live for, any future i had imagined is impossible now. my life has fallen to bits without them and i plan to catch that bus in the coming year (got a kit) i just need to prepare some stuff. but i would've done anything to die in their arms with them.
i just want you to know what she will probably be going through. i would've given anything in the world even to just know about it.
