TheAngelBornInHell
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- Dec 23, 2024
- 33
basically the title, i couldn't get a therapist. on another post of mine i was talking about how i was building up the courage to do so, my mom approached me and we had a talk, she told me you seem very serious about it and want to genuinely kill yourself. she asked if i wanted an online therapist and i said yes, i was really happy that finally i can handle my mental health for once even if it was an online therapist. 3 to 4 days later i asked my mom about any updates and she said it's not possible. i was so sad i couldn't understand why,
she explained we could be using all the money on education purposes and courses . rather than waste it on a therapist as im "just going through a phase" .. does a phase last ,, 4 years? i can't really do it anymore, nobodys taking me seriously. everytime i open up to someone irl they either tell me its a phase or just hormones it's literally beyond that. i cant simply open up to them with all the things i've went through and the trauma it will ruin our relationship. everythings the worst. i either keep getting sick or having breakdowns i cannot progress in my life at this point anyway. i have no future i might as well just actually attempt for once.
she explained we could be using all the money on education purposes and courses . rather than waste it on a therapist as im "just going through a phase" .. does a phase last ,, 4 years? i can't really do it anymore, nobodys taking me seriously. everytime i open up to someone irl they either tell me its a phase or just hormones it's literally beyond that. i cant simply open up to them with all the things i've went through and the trauma it will ruin our relationship. everythings the worst. i either keep getting sick or having breakdowns i cannot progress in my life at this point anyway. i have no future i might as well just actually attempt for once.
