I could do it right now and be successful

[EmpathyMinded]

Staying over at a place I do from time to time and there is a really strong support bar in the closet that is level with my chin so at a really good height for kneeling hanging to work. I learned how to tie a slipknot tonight as well with a cord and I realized testing it and then pretty easily securing the other end strongly and test putting my head through it and leaning forward that holy shit, this is good to go right now. It's late and the people who live where I am staying would never think to disturb me this late, I have zero doubt on having way over the half hour I need to do the deed successfully.

I'm not going to tonight - it's not a big deal to wait I visit every week and these same circumstances are simple to replicate - but simply leaning forward and processing I have this much power, FINALLY I have control over my life…it's a really powerful feeling. If I do it, there are things I would still like to do and get in order first, but that epiphany really made me feel good. Knowing I could any time basically gives me a nice sense of peace I've been needing lately.

Just felt like sharing that. Hope you all are doing well, well as well as you can be if you're here like me.

 

[Yaka]

I am glad you are able to find a way and have that power
wish I did

 

[opheliaoveragain]

This at least gives me hope for partial.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace, best wishes.