Could this be some sort of SI?

[slowlybreaking]

Something weird happened to me. I'm trying to go forward with my FSH/PSH plan, but everytime I make major progress I have this oppressing sense of tiredness, even though I have had plenty sleep beforehand. My head has started to hurt as well, so I can't really concentrate. Maybe it's the depression combined with the stress of knowing I'm going to die if I keep going that uses all the energy of my body and makes me feel like this. Has this ever happened to you? Or am I just imagining things? It feels as my body is telling me "hey buddy, let's just rest instead of whatever this is okay?" but I know I don't have much time left before I get found out, and I really, really want to go. It gets to a point it's frustrating.

 

[never mind me]

Could be depression, could be SI. I don't experience the same thing, but I noticed that my doubts become stronger, when I take deliberate steps for ctb like scouting out a tree for FSH. Once I am back home I then sink back into hopelessness and am convinced that my situation won't improve, but if I try something to escape my suffering I have these doubtful questions, if it is premature what I am about to do and what not. At this point I think that I will probably need to take a large dose of Alprazolam immediately before ctb, so I can go ahead with it.

 

[slowlybreaking]

if I try something to escape my suffering I have these doubtful questions, if it is premature what I am about to do and what not.

Same here, but I managed to ignore them for the most part. I suppose now that my body realized double thinking is not going to work, it's trying to make me stop by not letting me have any physical strength to carry on.