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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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I am flip flopping on ordering SN now. I am on the edge of suicide. I bought me stuff online and I don't give a fuck about it.
I have roundabout 15 k on my bank account. There is one thing left on my bucket list. Having a partner/having sex.
I consider to go to an escort. It is the last thing that could save me from suicide or at least postpone it. I mean otherwise I might kill myself in the next weeks or months. Getting a partner is almost impossible with this illness. I miss intimacy a lot. Being touched. I am severely touch depraved.
I live in the same house as my mom. I don't want that she knows it. But why actually? I am adult and can do what I want. I don't have a car so the only thing that is left is a hotel. That gonna be pretty expensive. There seems to be a brothel where I live...but it only opens in the evening. I don't know which excuse I could have...with some fantasy it could work.
I have roundabout 15 k on my bank account. There is one thing left on my bucket list. Having a partner/having sex.
I consider to go to an escort. It is the last thing that could save me from suicide or at least postpone it. I mean otherwise I might kill myself in the next weeks or months. Getting a partner is almost impossible with this illness. I miss intimacy a lot. Being touched. I am severely touch depraved.
I live in the same house as my mom. I don't want that she knows it. But why actually? I am adult and can do what I want. I don't have a car so the only thing that is left is a hotel. That gonna be pretty expensive. There seems to be a brothel where I live...but it only opens in the evening. I don't know which excuse I could have...with some fantasy it could work.
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