I can't think of anything else

[itsoverforme303]

Every second I am awake the only thing I hear in my head is that I have to die. The only thing I can see when I close my eyes are either me hanging or my splattered body. Even when I sleep I dream of dying or someone killing me or hurting me. Randomly I get flashes of hitting the pavement facefirst and then my skull splitting open. It's gruesome stuff. I have this burning sensation in my head all the time. I think I'm going insane. I can't take it anymore. What do I do? I can't bring myself to commit suicide, yet I can't keep living like this. What do I do? Every second I feel like crying and screaming and I am struggling to fake smiles and pretend I am happy when in public. I don't know what to do.

 

[therapist]

which country are you from?

 

[therapist]

I live in the US.

minecraft steve

 

[therapist]

What?

he can help you find the light

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Every second I am awake the only thing I hear in my head is that I have to die. The only thing I can see when I close my eyes are either me hanging or my splattered body. Even when I sleep I dream of dying or someone killing me or hurting me. Randomly I get flashes of hitting the pavement facefirst and then my skull splitting open. It's gruesome stuff. I have this burning sensation in my head all the time. I think I'm going insane. I can't take it anymore. What do I do? I can't bring myself to commit suicide, yet I can't keep living like this. What do I do? Every second I feel like crying and screaming and I am struggling to fake smiles and pretend I am happy when in public. I don't know what to do.

what do u mean u cant bring urself to commit suicide , si , or ?

 

[itsoverforme303]

what do u mean u cant bring urself to commit suicide , si , or ?

Yes it scares me whenever I think of dying.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably in this torturous existence. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.