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SoFewMethods

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Apr 25, 2024
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Every day, I always plan to CTB at night, but when night comes, I get an overwhelming feeling that prevents me from CTB. It's like my mind actively declines what I want and forces me to live and leave my problems for tomorrow. It's so annoying how hard it is to mentally prepare myself for CTB.
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

Waiting for my next window of opportunity
Mar 9, 2024
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This is where I'm at too. Like I have my method ready and everything, it just takes so much effort to actually go through with it and I'm too tired.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
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This is where I'm at too. Like I have my method ready and everything, it just takes so much effort to actually go through with it and I'm too tired.
I'm having this issue to. I'm just to tired
 
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myopia

myopia

on earth, we’re briefly gorgeous.
Apr 8, 2024
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This is exactly where I am too. Glad to know I'm not alone.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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No doubt, it's SI.

The slightest piece of hope also activates SI even more.
 
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dearlulu

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Apr 10, 2024
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Every day, I always plan to CTB at night, but when night comes, I get an overwhelming feeling that prevents me from CTB. It's like my mind actively declines what I want and forces me to live and leave my problems for tomorrow. It's so annoying how hard it is to mentally prepare myself for CTB.
You're not alone feeling this way. I feel exactly the same as you. It's draining feeling this way.
 
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halleyscomet

halleyscomet

halley
Mar 26, 2024
307
It's most likely SI, but that's okay. You have all the time in the world to make a decision, don't rush into things unless you know you're ready.

I hope you find the peace you're looking for.
 
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