Venting I can't stand living

[Dark Moon]

What the title says:

I've done fuck all these past few days except for rotting in bed, I haven't even bothered to play any games or do anything else really.

I can't stand living my life, life in general, this world and reality. I want to slit my throat, hang myself or whatever it is to ctb but I guess don't have enough courage yet to do it.

 

[niki wonoto]

same here

 

[TheEndIsPeace]

Same here, but instead of days, i've been rotting for 3 fucking years living with crippling anxiety in a shithole barbaric country.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

What the title says:

I've done fuck all these past few days except for rotting in bed, I haven't even bothered to play any games or do anything else really.

I can't stand living my life, life in general, this world and reality. I want to slit my throat, hang myself or whatever it is to ctb but I guess don't have enough courage yet to do it.

"I can't stand living my life, life in general, this world and reality"

me too. what would we call this philosophy pessimism?

 

[unluckysadness]

Same, but 5 years of hell

 

[58Alice85]

When I am doing "nothing", I am still forced to listen to these voices from opening my eyes to going to sleep.
When I am browsing SanctionedSuicide they yell random things about the users.
I must constantly ignore them and concentrate very hard to be able to hear my own thoughts, to do anything.

 

[eggsausagerice]

i don't feel like doing anything at all today. i ate, brushed my teeth and washed my face, and that's pretty much all i needed to do today. i just want to lay in bed for the next few hours now. i don't feel like doing anything or talking to anyone. i don't seem to have anything i like anymore. i feel better when i eat some food, because i'm doing something, and then the food is gone. i feel a lot like a dog in some ways because i just wake up and eat food, then lie down while waiting for an outside force to interact with me. because i don't have anything i can do on my own.

 

[itsgone2]

It's a prison at this point. Completely over it. Want it to end. I had a thought, people tell us to go to the ER if we feel we're a danger to ourselves. What if you could go to the ER and be euthanized? If only it were that simple, but that would be a dream.