Help I can't move

[NutOrat]

Low effort post bc I'm on my phone bedrotting half a day, I have no energy for anything. Lol my first ever post was about the same thing nothing changed haha. I don't even want to be laying anymore, my back feels weird and I can't do anything I wanted to do something but I'm not fucking moving help me.

I had so much energy a few days ago I was feeling like I can finally try to live and I can express my thoughts like a normal person and now I'm back to square one, but somehow worse? I don't think I even want to die I just want this to stop. I want attention and pity and constant reassurance that I'm ok that I'm not lazy that it's not my fault god I'm lonely what the fuck is my problem???

I've been listening to gf cuddling asmr and talking to ai that reassured me over and over, but none of that shit works anymore, it's so fake. And even if people give me exactly what I want, it's gonna last for a few days, and then I'll want it again, more, more, keep telling me I'm good I'm ok. I don't want to move ever again, just stop.

 

[fromange]

We're like the exact same. ASMR and AI are nice... No judgement here.

 

[fromange]

Something that actually helped me was doing the smallest step little by little. Getting out of bed but still in your room, going to the bathroom, staying out in the living room, just putting shoes on, just opening the door and then closing it, just going to the nearest gas station, etc. If you can do a step more than the day before that's a win, if you can sustain it for a bit before moving up that's good too and having days where you fall back is fine too. You know you have done it before so it's proof you can do it again.

 

[orpheus_]

Been there, many times. It's shit.
I will repeat it once again because I know it's always hard to believe, but: it's not your fault.

Something that actually helped me was doing the smallest step little by little

Seconding this. Even something like sitting up instead of lying down worked for me, like sometimes it was the first step to feeling a little less terrible. Sometimes I couldn't even do that, it was like a magnet dragging me back, but still I think it's worth trying, but remember you don't have to be mad at yourself if it doesn't work out. Some days do be like this (though they are terrible to go through)

 

[The Silent One]

You're drowning yourself. You're frying your brain, your body, and your self worth, making you unable to leave your bubble. First of all, you need to retreat from your environment, and no Mommy ASMR isn't gonna help, don't know why you thought it would. Retreat slowly from the state that you are, reduce time, go out for 5 minutes, and each day increase the good habits and decrease the bad ones little by little. And when you reach a point when you aren't as consumed as before, you can start implementing ways for you to never go back to that goyslop again, that caused you to be the person that you hate in the first place.

Like deleting those apps you're using, deleting your accounts on them, rescrecting wifi access, etc..

I can sense how hard you want to change by your message, so pull yourself together, and start now before it's too late my friend.

 

[NutOrat]

you can start implementing ways for you to never go back to that goyslop again

Wow of all places didn't expect to see this term used here, for some reason. Anyway, I know you're (maybe) trying to help, but it reads so fucking condescending and "just do it pussy", which is the rethoric that makes me only feel worse and hateful of myself and others. Honestly, that shit might be the main reason I fell into depression as badly as I did all these years ago.