Venting I cant even cry anymore

[lunar02102009]

I really cant take this anymore , the world is always cruel to us for no god damn reason i cant stop crying i need someone to comfort me when i cry for hours on end with no one to comfort me , tell me everythings okay , that they are gonna take care of me no matter what happenes...its just me and my pillows . People are insanely racist , they get mad over little things and make you suffer for it i really cant anymore i dont wanna cry anymore atleast without any comfort im breaking down from the inside i go to the gym and look healthy on the outside but on the inside its a exploded brain with blood dripping out in the forms of tears and slowly my lungs are going out because of the cigarettes which help but still i cry for hours i really need someone but knowing this world i wont ever have anyone who will be as desperate for me as i will be for them. I am ready to leave this world give me cancer or hell whatever the most painful fatal disease is make me suffer until i cant take it anymore and my body decomposes otherwise i will use my coal to achieve my life's goal , death

 

[Warriorsfan]

I'm not finished crying, just maybe for today. I used to like to cry joyfully with bipolar at movies. Now I cry in despair. I wish there was easy way to die. But there isn't. I'm pretty good person and many people have loved me. But most are gone now. There are three who will never leave me. They are awesome. But other friend(s) I needed now turned their back on me after manic episode. It was place I could go and just hang out and laugh.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

Wanna trade? I cry too much. All the time. To the point of dehydration.

 

[Warriorsfan]

Nirvana was my favorite in the 90's
I wish I was gone like him.
But I wish he was still here.

 

[katara]

I wish someone would hug me when I cry too. Usually nowadays I'm just empty and numb.
that's good you go to the gym, does it ever make you feel better? I have heard some ppl say it helps them.

 

[Miss Anthropy]

I relate to you so much. We never asked for any of this and im confused as to why i need to suffer anymore. Im so tired of being in pain and i am sorry everyone is in pain.

 

[lunar02102009]

I wish someone would hug me when I cry too. Usually nowadays I'm just empty and numb.
that's good you go to the gym, does it ever make you feel better? I have heard some ppl say it helps them.

It does help but not as much you think it does

 

[katara]

I relate to you so much. We never asked for any of this and im confused as to why i need to suffer anymore. Im so tired of being in pain and i am sorry everyone is in pain.

You definitely don't deserve to suffer. I think all of us deserves better people in our lives. I hope things get better for you. I'm here to talk if you ever need someone, any time. I think we should be nicer to each other. We don't have anybody else who understands and we are such a small group of ppl.