Venting I can't do this anymore it hurts

[NutOrat]

I'll never get better, recovery won't ever work if I don't want to put in any effort, and I can't. I can't endure the pain, if I keep living I will have to try hard and I can't. I won't grow up I won't find work I won't do what adults have to do I'd rather die. I'm so tired I can't get up from my chair. I'm so selfish I hurt everyone who cares about me. I'm so repulsive people don't feel like caring, and nothing can help me, so why even try? It's hopeless, I don't see any way it can get better. I'm too tired to even type anything proper I want to disappear. I never want to feel pain again.

 

[soul2realm]

I am so sorry for your pain. I just hope the very best for you. Sending you loads of love and blessings.

 

[whywere]

My heart and soul breaks into a million pieces reading this and also for you.

I wrap my arms around you, and I want you to REALLY know that we are ALL in this together, ALWAYS!

I remember back in March 1974 standing on that street curb with a bag of clothes in my hand and my "parents" driving away for good. No food, money nothing and even after almost 52 years it still stings and makes my heart jump, as what in the heavens am I going to do?

I had a friend that I knew in high school who drove by stopped and took me to his parent's place and they let me stay rent free fed and housed me as I got my pins under me.

I mention this as I hope with all my heart that you remember that we are ALL loving and caring here and you have a HUGE support system here.

I have you in my thoughts and prayers with HUGE hugs, love and the knowledge that you are always a great friend.

Walter

 

[NutOrat]

Would be cool to go to bed right now and never wake up. Then finally the pain will end. I won't have to do anything anymore. No effort, no work done - nothing. Would be nice.

Good night SaSu. hope it's my last one, but I know it won't be.