rowfish
Member
- Jul 15, 2025
- 6
im tired. im fucking tired of all of this. i dont want to live anymore but i dont wanna die either. my friends will be sad if i die but i cant seem to find ANYTHING to help. everything in my life is stressing me out. i stopped eating as much and sleeping a lot more and now my mum is saying that i'll be adding onto her stress if i make her pay anymore medical bills relating to my poor eating habits. she just says that she doesnt want me to create trouble for her but doesnt even bring up that she's worried or anything. it's like she only thinks of me as yet another bill to pay and I HATE IT. im jsut so exhausted and its only been about a month and a half into my school year. i cant cut myself as much because my parents will obviously notice it if i cut on my arm, i cant cut anywhere else because it just doesnt feel the same as on my arm. i hate living, it's so tiring. my parents just seem to disregard my feelings in favor of my brother. today i didnt go to school because i was just so done with everything. guess fucking what? my brother stayed home too, yet my mum only lectured ME. while saying i should go study instead of watching tv. bitch i will literally hang myself do NOT lecture me about slacking off and enjoying myself when my brother is doing the SAME THING. I FUCKING HATE LVING IM DONE IM DONE I HATE THIS JSUT KILL ME ALREADY FUYCKING HEL;L I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I JUST WANNA DIE
its just so difficult for me to get out of bed, i cant seem to find a reason to keep going anymore. im sick and tired and done with it all
its just so difficult for me to get out of bed, i cant seem to find a reason to keep going anymore. im sick and tired and done with it all
