I cancelled my sn order

[alivebutnotliving]

As the title suggests, I went ahead and cancelled the purchase and was refunded. Western Union allowed me to since dmc had not picked up the cash yet.

I am numb to it all, I was prepared to leave, yet the time doesn't feel right. I will continue this for just awhile longer. I was debating still having it delivered, but id rather have that money to fund some of my hobbies here on out.

I don't really know how to feel. I just know it wasn't time.

 

[timf]

Sometime thoughts of suicide can focus attention away from anything else. This can amplify darkness. It sounds like you have found some light. Congratulations.

 

[TheHolySword]

It's never too late until it is. There's nothing wrong with changing your mind and seeing what life has to offer. I'm wishing you all the best

 

[gogoprince]

Glad that you're here for a little while longer. What hobbies?

 

[broken_stoic]

Good for you. Sometimes a choice like that can jolt you out of it for a bit.

 

[LostLily]

Proud of your strength to cancel the order

 

[Heartaches]

I'm happy for you. Being chronically suicidal and/or having episodes of suicidality is tough, I don't blame you for not knowing how to feel. Acquiring or relinquishing a method isn't an easy thing to process. But I'm proud you recognized it wasn't your time and wish to fund things you value and bring you joy. It takes a ton of strength.

May they provide you a lot of fulfilment. Wish you the best

 

[alivebutnotliving]

Glad that you're here for a little while longer. What hobbies?

Thank you for your kind comment, I'm big into art related hobbies :). I've been able to support myself financially by creating cosplays for others as well as digital character design and art. I'm very lucky and grateful for this.

I'm happy for you. Being chronically suicidal and/or having episodes of suicidality is tough, I don't blame you for not knowing how to feel. Acquiring or relinquishing a method isn't an easy thing to process. But I'm proud you recognized it wasn't your time and wish to fund things you value and bring you not. It takes a ton of strength.

May they provide you a lot of fulfilment. Wish you the best

thank you very much for your time and kind words : ) Best wishes for you as well <3