Story I called the suicide prevention hotline today

[alreadyfound]

I felt really awful earlier, especially because my boyfriend insisted on having sex with me even though I'd told him I didn't love him anymore and tried to break up with him last week. But he refused, and I'm scared because he has guns. It's stupid to be afraid of that when you're suicidal, but I don't want to die like that. So, when I got home, I burst into tears and really wanted to die.

I called the helpline to talk, but I couldn't explain the true reason so I just said semi incoherent things. The person on the other end listened to me for over 20 minutes, then had to hang up. I wish I'd been more honest, but I was afraid of being hospitalized because I'd already attempted suicide last year. She asked for my name and address to create a file, but I didn't give her my exact address to avoid them showing up at my house. She asked me if I had any benzos to calm me down, but I don't, because my awful psychiatrist won't prescribe them to me.

So it wasn't very helpful, but I still recommend giving them a call because it felt good to talk to someone.

 

[isthisthingon]

The moment you give an address or definable location. The police will be on the way. I've done this in a moment of panic. It made things much worse for me.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Last time I called a hotline they took over an hour to pick me up and by then I just spiraled out of the crisis. Real helpful people.

 

[mrwagnerfan]

I called the hotline and it actually worked because whoever answered was so mean and ignorant (and also didn't follow the usual script) that it made me laugh. Not sure what that says about it

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I called the hotline and it actually worked because whoever answered was so mean and ignorant (and also didn't follow the usual script) that it made me laugh. Not sure what that says about it

Maybe you were expecting something more scripted and were ready to dismiss it but got something so unexpected it turned your brain around? I mean...if it worked, points for them.