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ef99

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Dec 11, 2025
16
Hello, all.

I have been debating this to myself for a long time but I believe tonight is finally the night where I ctb. I have finally met someone who makes me feel so horrible about myself that I think it's finally giving me the motivation I needed to ctb. My method of choice is using Diphenhydramine Hcl with a total dose of 9.1g. I hope I don't back out this time at the last second and finally go through with it since this person I've met truly makes me hate existing. I think it was exactly what I needed. Much love to you all.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
569
I hate to be that person but diphenhydramine is unlikely to cause death and will cause massive hallucinations, please consider something else 🫂
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Hello, all.

I have been debating this to myself for a long time but I believe tonight is finally the night where I ctb. I have finally met someone who makes me feel so horrible about myself that I think it's finally giving me the motivation I needed to ctb. My method of choice is using Diphenhydramine Hcl with a total dose of 9.1g. I hope I don't back out this time at the last second and finally go through with it since this person I've met truly makes me hate existing. I think it was exactly what I needed. Much love to you all.
Same I am ctb tonight
 
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behindtheveil

Member
Oct 12, 2025
308
Hello, all.

I have been debating this to myself for a long time but I believe tonight is finally the night where I ctb. I have finally met someone who makes me feel so horrible about myself that I think it's finally giving me the motivation I needed to ctb. My method of choice is using Diphenhydramine Hcl with a total dose of 9.1g. I hope I don't back out this time at the last second and finally go through with it since this person I've met truly makes me hate existing. I think it was exactly what I needed. Much love to you all.
Hey fellow passenger, I am sorry for your pain and the situation you are in. Whatever you decide is your decision, but don't you think going out should be on our terms not because some scumbag made us do so. Loads of love and blessings to you.
 
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ef99

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Dec 11, 2025
16
Hey fellow passenger, I am sorry for your pain and the situation you are in. Whatever you decide is your decision, but don't you think going out should be on our terms not because some scumbag made us do so. Loads of love and blessings to you.
Yeah I agree. Unfortunately we're actually friends and honestly am just not in a very good headspace right now so it really feels like the nail in the coffin for me. I might sleep on it though don't want to do anything rash.
 
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liza

liza

Member
Mar 2, 2025
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Nah. The brain is so extremely powerful that it starts lying to you. And YOU believe that to be the truth. Trust me listen to me. It's not worth it. Listen to me
Hello, all.

I have been debating this to myself for a long time but I believe tonight is finally the night where I ctb. I have finally met someone who makes me feel so horrible about myself that I think it's finally giving me the motivation I needed to ctb. My method of choice is using Diphenhydramine Hcl with a total dose of 9.1g. I hope I don't back out this time at the last second and finally go through with it since this person I've met truly makes me hate existing. I think it was exactly what I needed. Much love to you all.
The more you give into your brain power the more it becomes the truth. It's all lies.
Hello, all.

I have been debating this to myself for a long time but I believe tonight is finally the night where I ctb. I have finally met someone who makes me feel so horrible about myself that I think it's finally giving me the motivation I needed to ctb. My method of choice is using Diphenhydramine Hcl with a total dose of 9.1g. I hope I don't back out this time at the last second and finally go through with it since this person I've met truly makes me hate existing. I think it was exactly what I needed. Much love to you all.
One time, I gave my brain all its power. And guess what? I stared to hallucinate and hear voices. The more power and belief you give into the brain it comes through truth.
 
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behindtheveil

Member
Oct 12, 2025
308
Yeah I agree. Unfortunately we're actually friends and honestly am just not in a very good headspace right now so it really feels like the nail in the coffin for me. I might sleep on it though don't want to do anything rash.
You do that. If I may suggest a hot drink and a comfy bed really helps. Take care.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,099
I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
Can't you just avoid that person?
OD methods usually fail, take that in mind.
Whatever you decide, I hope you are able to find peace!
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,341
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Student
Jan 11, 2026
195
I had a friend many years ago. I was annoyed. I left. Now if we were to meet I wouldn't be the same. It would have been nothing for me. Some worm😆😆
So dump if you feel that is better.
PS: Still trying to find me lol
Care less.
no even in that country anymore
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I hate to be that person but diphenhydramine is unlikely to cause death and will cause massive hallucinations, please consider something else 🫂
Sadly at that dosage it's actually extremely likely to kill ... it's going to be a long and painful death .
 
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