I am tired of trying

[LifeIsASadist]

I had tried several suicide methods to no avail and I either have to take the pain even further until I move out and buy SN or somehow power my way through the torture of my only avaliable "methods" such as when I took over 1000+ mg of benadryl once and it only gave me a hangover the next day and I tried a shoelace rope but I am too low IQ to figure it out and my tourniquet hurts my trachea.

Benadryl is the closest thing to be able to kill me but it would be insanely difficult to kill someone like me with benadryl alone because I feel my body has been hardened up to resist it from lack of sleep I almost never get.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, it's just so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.